My dreams are now really lonely and depressing now

[Lost Magic]

I used to have nice dreams that would give me comfort away from the loneliness and cruelty of my existence. Now, all they do is remind me of dead loved ones, dead pets and people who I have never even met.

Then I wake up and I am still alone, only I am not dreaming this time. It's all very sad and desperate and the festive season will only make it worse. When am I going to finally just say, fuck it, time to exit this mortal coil?

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing really is too dreadful, in my case temporary sleep could never offer much relief even know it's the closest thing to not existing. But anyway I wish you the best, I get that it's awful having to suffer in this existence.

 

[hermestrimegistus]

All I have is vivid nightmares. And then I wake up all alone in the middle of the night without anyone to turn to. Its almost like my reality is worse than just being alone. I gotta work on being comfortable being alone. But its been like this for so long, if i'm still feeling empty by myself, the problem is obviously me. I just need to learn to deal with it. I just don't know how to comfort myself in these situations

 

[ceriseange♡]

I get what you mean completely. Honestly not entirely looking forward to the festive season either because idk if the christmas cheer is gonna sink in at all.
My anxiety finds a way to sneak into everything around me, dreams included :( It's like there's starting to be no form of break. I used to love being alone but I've started waking up with a sinking feeling in my chest because I realize my apartment is empty aside from me. Sometimes I see my dead dog and wake up expecting him to be there because it felt so real.

So so sorry you're going through this, wishing you the best ;; <3