My dream

[magicdeathbutton]

i wish there was a way to CTB that was both easy and painless. Like, hanging is easy but it is painful as hell, whereas exit bag is painless but difficult to set up. I can't do this anymore I wish there was just a magic button I could press and just end it all. I am so over this

 

[theDunce]

it would be so nice to have a magic death button. too funny.

I was thinking hanging but I also purchased a gun. I thought it would be easier with the gun but SI comes back full force regardless of method it seems, or so it does for me. I felt more confident before but now the gun is just sitting there waiting for me.

I will switch back to thinking maybe I'll hang myself instead but knowing that my partial scared me into thinking I must kick out the chair I am back to the gun.

I wish I had an answer here too. If, or assuming I must do it, when the time comes, which feels like it should be soon, then I guess I am just no longer so I won't be able to pass anything on to help.

Let me know if you find that magic button. I need it too.

 

[raineen]

it would be so nice to have a magic death button. too funny.

me too.

as for the op, i have been searching for that too, none were glamorous whenever i tried, drugs were terrible, bleeding out was very panicky. i have thought about helium, and as well about SN. i recognize they're not glamorous as well. i have thought greatly about going with guns, but i don't think i would have the guts to, i think i would need something i can do that i can forget about, and know it will be immediate afterwards, and that i will not suffer, preferably just pass out and be done with it.

 

[magicdeathbutton]

it would be so nice to have a magic death button. too funny.

I was thinking hanging but I also purchased a gun. I thought it would be easier with the gun but SI comes back full force regardless of method it seems, or so it does for me. I felt more confident before but now the gun is just sitting there waiting for me.

I will switch back to thinking maybe I'll hang myself instead but knowing that my partial scared me into thinking I must kick out the chair I am back to the gun.

I wish I had an answer here too. If, or assuming I must do it, when the time comes, which feels like it should be soon, then I guess I am just no longer so I won't be able to pass anything on to help.

Let me know if you find that magic button. I need it too.

I wish I lived somewhere where I could buy a gun and just do it

 

[theDunce]

me too.

as for the op, i have been searching for that too, none were glamorous whenever i tried, drugs were terrible, bleeding out was very panicky. i have thought about helium, and as well about SN. i recognize they're not glamorous as well. i have thought greatly about going with guns, but i don't think i would have the guts to, i think i would need something i can do that i can forget about, and know it will be immediate afterwards, and that i will not suffer, preferably just pass out and be done with it.

So what choice does that leave you with? Or what method are you considering if you have one?

I wish I lived somewhere where I could buy a gun and just do it

It will probably be the method I choose. I still hate the violence of it, but I am thinking that maybe I can pull the trigger. maybe... I must.

 

[raineen]

So what choice does that leave you with? Or what method are you considering if you have one?

i really, really, really don't know. i'm hoping to go the SN route with something strong enough to knock me out beforehand, as i have access to opiates.

but like

jumping: i am terrified of falling i don't wanna experience that in my last moments
hanging: i know how bad it can be, and i have lost consciousness that way before, i don't want it
overdose: the throwing up is really not fun, and feeling sick as shit, although codeine was nice, i felt my breathing de-accelerate, and i felt calm, but i panicked last second, maybe that
gun: i really, really don't wanna traumatize the person that finds me, and i find difficult not to if my brains are all over the wall

helium does sound nice as well though.

 

[Defenestration]

J'aimerais tellement qu'il existe une méthode pour arrêter de fumer qui soit à la fois simple et indolore. La pendaison, par exemple, est facile mais terriblement douloureuse, tandis que la poche de drainage est indolore mais difficile à préparer. Je n'en peux plus. J'aimerais tellement qu'il y ait un bouton magique sur lequel appuyer pour en finir. J'en ai vraiment marre.

Je voudrais cela aussi.
For me jump but not where to jump

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

I fantasize every day about downing an N potion like they give people in Oregon. It's to the point where I half-think it's real and I have a painless way out. My real method is hanging, but I back out every time. I obsessively read about celebrities who died by partial because I think I have a viable setup for it now. But I haven't gone into the closet today. I'm waiting for some burst of courage I know is unlikely to come. I need to think about peace and relief, not just the squeeze.

 

[bipolar22]

by the way you type are you sure thats what u really want. no offence though.