Venting My dogs, my only reason to continue to exist

[dogbird]

My dogs, my only reason to continue to exist.

It has been a very hard few months, I have never felt so bad. Something that I had been dragging since 2021 and I thought I had left behind exploded again with everything.

I had the best partner I could have ever known. He was the only person in the world able to validate my emotions, we were very happy.... But last year I couldn't take care of the relationship very well and he left me.
I have been destroyed ever since.
I have been so bad that one of the friends I had in the group of friends that I put together decided to get mad at me since I wasn't thinking enough of her but of me.... Damn, what else can I do?
So she sent me to hell and now she has taken all my friends with her....

The only thing I'm still eating for is my dogs. I live alone and my family doesn't care about me..... They are my only peace.
I know that if I die they will need me and I will be gone and their fate will be uncertain.
That worries me
But I have felt so very bad.
Every day it's harder to go on and I can't even work anymore because of how bad I feel.

 

[Manfrotto99]

I am truly sorry, I know what it feels like to have family who don't care about you and to just keep living for you dog because they need you. I lost my girl a year ago and I still cry almost every day. It is so hard. I cannot afford another dog and have lost so much over the years.

Please try and hang in there for your dog. I say this because it is the only thing in my life I don't regret.They have a purpose and there role is to stay by you unconditionally without question through suffering and pain. My girl was in so much pain herself towards the end but I knew in her eyes that she tried desperately to hang on for me. Please try and allow your baby to continue her role and purpose, despite how hard life is for you. I allowed my girl to continue her role as my companion and we always found a way together and I will always honour, love and cherish her beyond words for that. She took care of someone who was suicidal. Not an easy job but she did it with devotion and love. They are our soul mates and the only thing I look forward to is being with both her and my other dog again when I finally get up the courage and leave this miserable life of mine.