My dog died.

[W11111]

Two weeks ago my dog died after being around for about half my life. I miss him so much and feel so lost. I have long told myself I had to wait until he passed before I could, and so now that he is actually gone I feel that much closer to giving up. I wish I could go. When he was put down I had a vet come to the house and administer a sedative and then a dose of pentobarbital. I oddly feel jealous. pentobarbital was what I had planned to take about 2 years ago and then I lost my ability to access it. I wish I could have the same passing as my dog, peacefully, easily and in my own home. I hate this. I feel trapped on Earth and I am so so sick of doing this.

 

[freycinetia]

I realize it doesn't mean much from a stranger on the internet, but I'm so fucking sorry, man.

Before anything else, give yourself the time to grieve. Grief is really complex and difficult and you should allow yourself the time to process it.

 

[darksouls]

I am so sorry for your loss

 

[whywere]

My heart broke and I cried reading this, as I wrap my arms around you and give you a huge hug.

Pets give so much and ask for so little in return, they are heaven sent that is for sure!

Maybe a new dog would work wonders for you and also can serve as a legacy of sorts to/for you. When I was growing up, I always took in "ditch warriors", that is what we called them, they were pets that other folks would "dump" by the roadside and drive away.

I took in dogs, cannot remember any cats or other pets and gave them a home. Growing up on a working dairy farm, always had plenty of extra scrap and food around and when the large animal vet would come on a call, they would vaccinate and also check out my dog(s) for free.

Like you, the hardest was always when they were called by to heaven and it hurt so much, HOWEVER along would come another "dumped" off dog for me to take in and it always helped so much.

After some time to grief, maybe check out about getting a new dog to give love to, take for walks and have a loving new companion.

My heart and soul go out to you right now, as we are ALL family here and if you are hurting, so am I and I want the best always for you.

I have you in my heart, thoughts and prayers, as you are such a wonderful friend.

Walter

 

[imagonner]

my best friend, shadow, soul mate bella crossed the rainbow bridge nearly 5 years ago. i still miss her, i still cry for her, i still wonder if there is anything i could have done differently. i still see her in my dreams and im so happy when i do. the original sharp pain has subsided into a constant dull ache.

 

[ctb_warrior]

I'm so sorry for your loss.
I was 10 when I lost my pomerian pet dog. He was my childhood buddy. He was there ever since I was a kid. So it had become an integral part of my life..
We were travelling by flight and these idiots didn't switch on the oxygen in the cargo, poor creature had to face such a brutal situation. He was very healthy when we boarded. When we saw him after landing, he was breathless but alive. My father took him to a vet, but he died on the way.
I was shocked. A fun trip had turned into a depressing trip. I couldn't eat food for several days. I didn't have the appetite to eat anything.
Losing a pet is very hurtful.
I wish you have enough strength to bear your loss

 

[unluckysadness]

Sorry for you loss. I've lost several cats (euthanasied too). It's so painful. I send you hugs and wish you peace

 

[ThisPartySucks]

I live for my cat, I couldn't imagine being without my little buddy. Sending nothing but love your way <3

 

[Aren]

Two weeks ago my dog died after being around for about half my life. I miss him so much and feel so lost. I have long told myself I had to wait until he passed before I could, and so now that he is actually gone I feel that much closer to giving up. I wish I could go. When he was put down I had a vet come to the house and administer a sedative and then a dose of pentobarbital. I oddly feel jealous. pentobarbital was what I had planned to take about 2 years ago and then I lost my ability to access it. I wish I could have the same passing as my dog, peacefully, easily and in my own home. I hate this. I feel trapped on Earth and I am so so sick of doing this.

I am so sorry for you and hope your dog found peace
We are so many to feel trapped on earth it's a misery to escape. If someone find a ctb button or something like that one day, i'll call her/him a hero.

I hope you will find peace too