My dog died and everything feels insanely unreal right now

[TemporaryToTesting]

I was doing relatively OK the past few days, I was starting to feel more stable, but just a few hours ago my dog died. I haven't felt anything about it or about anything since. I haven't cried nor have I grieved in any way because I just don't feel the need to. She came from a puppy farm in Russia and was abused so she never trusted me and as a result I never really built much attachment to her but I still feel like I'm missing something.

The only thing I'm feeling is just "empty", or unreal. Like if I CTB in a few minutes, it won't matter, because nothing does and it's all fake or something. I don't really know what to feel right now and tbh the only thing keeping me from doing it is just thinking about doing it after my exams because otherwise I'll have paid for them for nothing.

 

[Griever]

 

[Anonymousa]

Yea, events like losing someone, can feel really unreal or empty as a way to cope with the loss and that a huge change has taken place. I am sorry you lost your doggie :< Maybe later tho you might suffer more from the loss as the feelings of unrealness lessen. I hope whatever you decide allows you to escape the pain you are in.

 

[darksouls]

I am very sorry that you lost your dog
my beloved female dog passed away in 2020
she was my best friend for about 15 years
since her death I feel that inner emtiness again
I miss her