My delayed 30th birthday thread

[Tobacco]

Last monday I turned 30 years old.

I wasn't even sure where to post this since I've felt ups and downs. But in the end I feel more stable than not.

I want to exemplify my gratitude for still being alive with a thread someone made in this forum, in the Suicide Discussion section. To me it was kind of out of touch, but the basic premise was that, when one is desperate enough, we will take whatever ctb method we have at hand, not mattering how painful it is. So yes, I appreciate that life didn't push me into a corner for another year and forced me to jump from a bridge or something.

I've lost some things, like space to study any advanced topics. I loved putting 30 minutes everyday into college algebra or philosophy. But now that I have a part time job, for weeks and weeks I haven't managed to make time for it. I think I could have ADHD.

The things that give me some satisfaction are that I can still sleep for a long period. I spend at least 12 hours a day in bed. And also I've been studying Buddhism, which has helped. I should make a thread about an introduction to Secular Buddhism in the philosophy subforum. I could post in Recovery since it's supposed to help people, but I don't want to get too preachy. I got to the Buddhist study and practice after a long journey and I believe it should be the case for others.

Thanks for reading.

 

[whywere]

Happy belated birthday!!!!

I am very happy for you and lots of hugs and caring thoughts.

Again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Walter

 

[vyvanceandvodka]

happy belated birthday <33

 

[Always-in-trouble]

Happy belated birthday, it seems it was good one at least. What did you do if you are willing to share?

 

[Tobacco]

Happy belated birthday, it seems it was good one at least. What did you do if you are willing to share?

I went with my mom and sister to a japanese restaurant the day prior. Sadly I had to work on the exact date of my birthday.

 

[Always-in-trouble]

I went with my mom and sister to a japanese restaurant the day prior. Sadly I had to work on the exact date of my birthday.

Same with me having to visit my aunt a few days after my bday cause of moving. I don't know why work did not let you have the time off though. If it wasn't urgent, I'm sure they could have make it work. At least the restaurant trip seemed nice to eat out. Anything particularly interesting you guys had?

 

[Tobacco]

Same with me having to visit my aunt a few days after my bday cause of moving. I don't know why work did not let you have the time off though. If it wasn't urgent, I'm sure they could have make it work. At least the restaurant trip seemed nice to eat out. Anything particularly interesting you guys had?

I help my dad at work and aside from me, he's alone. So it makes things a little difficult.

I had a huge tepanyaki that I finished eating two days after. We also discovered that now all sushi rolls are "vegetarian" and you have to pay an extra to have them filled with some protein. It was kind of disappointing. Maybe the most interesting thing was the beverage we had. It was called calpico and it's some sort of fermented milk.