my dead bf cheated before passing

[evilblondegirl]

my boyfriend acted so amazing to my face while he was alive but the things I found out today made me wanna end it even sooner so his ex gf sent me a screenshot of him hitting on her right before he died and saying he would leave me for her and I'm heartbroken he's been dead for 4 months but I've been doing so much to honor him I wish I never existed he was the only person I ever felt loved by I can't wait till I take my last breathe in this evil place.

 

[Dejected 55]

As I've beaten into so many posts on this forum... I've never been in a relationship ever... but I don't envy people who have been in bad ones. Also, when I think about what it might like to be betrayed by someone I loved and trusted... the thought of being in a relationship with a woman and loving and trusting her completely... because that is the only way I know how to do it... and if I ever found out she had cheated on me? That would break me. As broken as I am now for never having been in a relationship ever... I believe being in a relationship and loving someone and then she cheated on me... that would break me so much more.

 

[FungalEyes]

How would you like to remember him? I think people are naturally creatures of hindsight and we always look back to see how different outcomes could occur. Him talking to his ex like that was wrong and you finding out now after his death only makes it hurt a thousand times more. But whats happened is in the past, if you know about it or not

When I look back at my relationship with my ex I see now that there were many flaws. She did many things that were wrong and so did I. But I don't want to remember the relationship in a bad way, It was the happiest time of my life when I was with her. I think if I remember her in badly then it ruins what a special time I had with her and I can't force myself to go through that pain so I just try to block it out with the positives.

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