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vanillamilkshakes

vanillamilkshakes

Aspiring Corpse
Aug 26, 2024
608
My daydreams are the only thing keeping me alive.

I'm almost completely detached from my 'real' life, spending so much time in my head fantasising about living another life, being a different person, with a different family, friends, and so on. These thoughts almost comfort me, but each time I actually think of my 'real' life, I grow depressed. I have to realise that I'm living in a completely separate world in my head and snap out of it so I can finally begin to work up the courage to CTB again. I was ready to go last year, but I put it off for too long, and my SI came back to me.
 
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niki wonoto

Experienced
Oct 10, 2019
246
I can also relate. In fact, my 'existential depression' is mostly caused by all this 'reality .vs. imagination' dilemma, ie.: my imaginations/dreams is so much more better than this limited/limiting, depressing reality.
 
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OzymandiAsh

OzymandiAsh

aNoMaLy
Nov 6, 2025
523
I wish I even still had an imagination. I don't. I'm trapped in this reality now 24/7.

Imagine how much THAT fucking sux.
 
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NutOrat

NutOrat

Falling Down
Jun 11, 2025
311
This's so relatable to me... Living these imaginary worlds, scenarios that, no matter how grounded, are pretty much impossible in reality for me, it's never going to be that good. It's the reason I've survived so long, just not fully experiencing reality. It's too boring, too cruel, too unfair. These negatives are present in fantasies too, but they're not as overwhelming, and I can deal with them, because there's more good. I wish all this life is just one giant, awful nightmare, after which we wake up in a much better world. But that too, is just a fantasy...

Sorry for the sour tone, you probably wanted to hear some encouragement instead. Just know that you're not alone in this, if that brings any comfort.
 
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vanillamilkshakes

vanillamilkshakes

Aspiring Corpse
Aug 26, 2024
608
This's so relatable to me... Living these imaginary worlds, scenarios that, no matter how grounded, are pretty much impossible in reality for me, it's never going to be that good. It's the reason I've survived so long, just not fully experiencing reality. It's too boring, too cruel, too unfair. These negatives are present in fantasies too, but they're not as overwhelming, and I can deal with them, because there's more good. I wish all this life is just one giant, awful nightmare, after which we wake up in a much better world. But that too, is just a fantasy...

Sorry for the sour tone, you probably wanted to hear some encouragement instead. Just know that you're not alone in this, if that brings any comfort.
Don't be sorry, it seems we have the same mind and thought process. And thank you, you aren't alone either.
 
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deathisapanacea

Student
Mar 10, 2025
197
Many of my schoolmates, collegemates, ex coworkers are living the dream. Whereas, all I can do is daydream about "living the dream"
 
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fkyou

fkyou

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Oct 1, 2022
499
Same daydreaming is the only thing bringing me joy now
 
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underairpressure

underairpressure

Member
Nov 30, 2025
64
I'm also a "maladaptive daydreamer"......... I spend arguably the majority of my life inside my head, living in fantasies. My fantasy world(s), and my fantasy Self, honestly sometimes feel more real to me than reality. The other day I spent hours, and hours, and hours immersed, and at the end I thought, "I think maybe I could be happy, if only I could stay inside my dreams forever". But obviously I can't. Not as long as I'm trapped inside a physical body that has needs
 
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iveseenfootage

it’s almost dry
Nov 30, 2025
111
I kind of relate. I go through life feeling so incredibly numb, I've gotten so detached from any real feelings lol
 
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Pony Slaystation

Member
Jul 28, 2018
97
Daydreams are better than "reality". And if everyone has a different idea of "reality" anyway, is it really "reality" or is everyone just living out their own version of a daydream?
 
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voivi

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Dec 1, 2025
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Aughh this is so relatable
 
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