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Defenestration
I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
- Oct 25, 2020
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I'm not really ready...but I never will be anyway...I've been suicidal for 20 years, since 2004. There is no chance of recovery for my psychiatric illnesses.
I am going in circles and the future looks very dark and irremediably so.
I've already missed twice jumping off a 60m roof onto hard/grass... a third and surely LAST chance is offered to me Thursday June 13...afterwards the guard will no longer want to open me...
I have to fight the SI. It's time to leave even if I'm not depressed, if I don't I'll still regret it. I hope I can do it...every day there are deaths by suicide, I too can do it, there is no reason why others can do it and not me. This topic is here until Thursday June 13th, the time of my death. sorry if that's a bit selfish .
I CAN CTB YES I CAN I MUST.
I will post my states lady. I want to leave while there is still time. I CAN AND ABOVE ALL I HAVE TO DO IT...things will only get worse afterwards...
I am going in circles and the future looks very dark and irremediably so.
I've already missed twice jumping off a 60m roof onto hard/grass... a third and surely LAST chance is offered to me Thursday June 13...afterwards the guard will no longer want to open me...
I have to fight the SI. It's time to leave even if I'm not depressed, if I don't I'll still regret it. I hope I can do it...every day there are deaths by suicide, I too can do it, there is no reason why others can do it and not me. This topic is here until Thursday June 13th, the time of my death. sorry if that's a bit selfish .
I CAN CTB YES I CAN I MUST.
I will post my states lady. I want to leave while there is still time. I CAN AND ABOVE ALL I HAVE TO DO IT...things will only get worse afterwards...