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meddle

meddle

pink floyd is half of my personality
Jan 11, 2024
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the ct results came in. turns out that my sweet girl has lung cancer. she is 17 years old, which is a lot for a cat. so i doubt that anything could be done in her case. tomorrow we are going to the oncologist, but i fear i already know what she will tell me. how am i going to live without her? i love her so much. i dont know what to do
 
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ge0rge

the satanic mechanic
Jul 29, 2018
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i'm so sorry
 
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SoLowHollow48

SoLowHollow48

Corporate Rat
Nov 24, 2025
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My condolences. Having to lose a dear friend has never been easy. Come to us and talk if you need to.

We'll always stop by 🫶
 
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Feb 26, 2023
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the ct results came in. turns out that my sweet girl has lung cancer. she is 17 years old, which is a lot for a cat. so i doubt that anything could be done in her case. tomorrow we are going to the oncologist, but i fear i already know what she will tell me. how am i going to live without her? i love her so much. i dont know what to do
I'm so sorry for what's to come. In my experience, there's no death or grief that does not change you to some degree and you may be left with a lingering hopeless and a missing spot where she once was. However, I want to rest assure you that you will find a way to live on without her, as you must(apologies if this is not helpful). I wish you the best and I wish your cat peace. You've given her means of a full life and I'm sure you've loved her lots by the way you speak of her, what better could be asked. If a peaceful passing is possible, I personally believe that's the best you can do for her now but I'll hold onto hope there's a fair chance of remission for her. There are some helpful Facebook groups for people mourning pet loss that can help quite a lot, as community is vital in these moments and they will recognise the gravity and have more insight on what to do moving forward. It's cruel how suffering is inherent and unforgiving in life. I wish you and your cat the best, and wish for a peaceful passing.
 
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meddle

pink floyd is half of my personality
Jan 11, 2024
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update: her x-ray results are worse now. she has fluid in the chest. she was prescribed palladia (chemotherapy). the prognosis is uncertain
 
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Apr 10, 2026
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the ct results came in. turns out that my sweet girl has lung cancer. she is 17 years old, which is a lot for a cat. so i doubt that anything could be done in her case. tomorrow we are going to the oncologist, but i fear i already know what she will tell me. how am i going to live without her? i love her so much. i dont know what to do
I'm so sorry. Shes been living so long because she must have a very happy life, of course thanks to you. She is lucky to have you and you her. I'm sorry and I wish you the best.
 
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pink floyd is half of my personality
Jan 11, 2024
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I'm so sorry. Shes been living so long because she must have a very happy life, of course thanks to you. She is lucky to have you and you her. I'm sorry and I wish you the best.
thanks ❤️❤️❤️ its just... i dont want to lose her so much 😭😭😭 it seems to me like i even would prefer to never have her in my life, so that i wont lose her 😭😭😭 and im going to lose her someday. i dont know what im going to do without her
 
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I fall until I stop this world
Dec 10, 2024
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I understand your struggle, my 11 y/o cat has sarcoma. it's a huge tumor right on top of her head, we weren't able to operate because I couldn't afford the procedures and the risk would be too high because the margins were so close to her eyes. I feel so fucking guilty. I've had her for a decade, since I was 13 years old…she literally grew up with me and she was my emotional support during my most difficult times she was always there for me.
I'm just spending as much time as I can with her and trying to spoil her but I absolutely hate seeing her in pain. I can't imagine my life without her. I'm terrified of coming home to my empty apartment when she's not around anymore. it's the most horrible thing I've ever had to deal with. she's my best friend in the whole entire world forever and I genuinely love her more than anything or anyone else in the entire world. I would never wish any pain or harm on her, she's so innocent and sweet. I'm scared to be alone without my sweet baby to take care of. taking care of her is the only thing that makes my life not feel pointless but without her I'm useless. I've cried so much and I can imagine you are in similar pain and I am so very sorry. cancer is so fucking cruel and evil and our sweet babies don't deserve it at all. it's not fair. I'm sorry this turned into a vent post but I just want you to know there are other people here in your situation and I understand your pain. I am so so so sorry I wish it was different for both of us and if you ever want to message someone in a similar situation as you my messages are open. I understand how painful it is 🩵 and I'm so sorry again….. I am sending love for both of you from the bottom of my heart
 
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LonelyPrince

Rotten to the Core
Dec 12, 2025
235
I'm so sorry...🫂
 
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Aflame5926

le tired
Apr 3, 2026
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thanks ❤️❤️❤️ its just... i dont want to lose her so much 😭😭😭 it seems to me like i even would prefer to never have her in my life, so that i wont lose her 😭😭😭 and im going to lose her someday. i dont know what im going to do without her
im sorry. spend 10 min to try type something. i cant say anything, im sorry
 
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meddle

pink floyd is half of my personality
Jan 11, 2024
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I understand your struggle, my 11 y/o cat has sarcoma. it's a huge tumor right on top of her head, we weren't able to operate because I couldn't afford the procedures and the risk would be too high because the margins were so close to her eyes. I feel so fucking guilty. I've had her for a decade, since I was 13 years old…she literally grew up with me and she was my emotional support during my most difficult times she was always there for me.
I'm just spending as much time as I can with her and trying to spoil her but I absolutely hate seeing her in pain. I can't imagine my life without her. I'm terrified of coming home to my empty apartment when she's not around anymore. it's the most horrible thing I've ever had to deal with. she's my best friend in the whole entire world forever and I genuinely love her more than anything or anyone else in the entire world. I would never wish any pain or harm on her, she's so innocent and sweet. I'm scared to be alone without my sweet baby to take care of. taking care of her is the only thing that makes my life not feel pointless but without her I'm useless. I've cried so much and I can imagine you are in similar pain and I am so very sorry. cancer is so fucking cruel and evil and our sweet babies don't deserve it at all. it's not fair. I'm sorry this turned into a vent post but I just want you to know there are other people here in your situation and I understand your pain. I am so so so sorry I wish it was different for both of us and if you ever want to message someone in a similar situation as you my messages are open. I understand how painful it is 🩵 and I'm so sorry again….. I am sending love for both of you from the bottom of my heart
thank you for your long reply. im so sorry you are in the similar situation 😭😭😭 why do our babies live so little? why do people even get pets if they know theyre going to lose them? sending you hugs ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹
I'm so sorry...🫂
thanks ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹
im sorry. spend 10 min to try type something. i cant say anything, im sorry
its ok, its the intention that counts ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹
thanks ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹
 
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