Venting my cat died and i want to go with her

[RubyGloom]

my cat is my entire heart and soul. she is so much more to me than just a pet. we made the difficult decision to help her cross over to the other side tonight (she was very old with many health issues and couldn't bear her suffering) and i am absolutely shattered. now i feel so guilty even though i know it was the right decision for her. she is my baby. she is my happiness. i don't even want to talk about her in past tense because i can't imagine going on without her.

i know so many people would think it's stupid that i want to die with my cat, and say it's just a cat, but it is the truth. i feel so sick and heartbroken. i just needed to vent. if you read all of this, i appreciate you

 

[Dayrain]

know so many people would think it's stupid that i want to die with my cat

No, I think almost all people on here understand this.

couldn't bear her suffering)

Can I ask how this was recognizable? Because I often think the same when I see certain behaviour patterns. Sometimes I think they are more similiar to us humans than we think.

 

[RubyGloom]

No, I think almost all people on here understand this.

Can I ask how this was recognizable? Because I often think the same when I see certain behaviour patterns. Sometimes I think they are more similiar to us humans than we think.

today she was just different. she wasn't herself. she was lethargic and just looked… tired. she got sick on the carpet and then laid down and i was so scared she was going to die right there. her breathing was shallow. i always promised her i wouldn't let her suffer, but i still feel so horribly guilty.

 

[Dayrain]

she was lethargic and just looked… tired

That's exactly what I experience as well. I see many animals these days just looking diappointed as well.

 

[sisyphean-nightmare]

I'm so, so sorry to hear about your loss. It's appalling to me how so many people invalidate the grief of pet parents, when it's often just as hard losing a beloved pet as losing a beloved human. There is even a word for that phenomena: disenfranchised grief.

Just know that you're not alone. I lost my little boy in 2021 and it was one of the hardest things I've ever gone through. I dreamed about him just last night. Feel free to message if you need support.

 

[FuneralCry]

I imagine that must be very painful, rest in peace.

 

[logi3535]

my heart ached reading this, i think animals are wonderful companions to share part of your life with and its so sad that we vastly outlive them (most of the time), sometimes i still tear up thinking of my good boy who i knew most of my life, who we also had to make the decision to put down :(

saying goodbye never gets easier either, but i think it is the right decision just to ease their suffering, if only they could live as long as people