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Done_with_the_world

I don’t know if I want to die or run away.
Oct 16, 2024
15
Hey guys, been a while.

Recently, my cat died a couple weeks ago. It was a horrific situation for me to discover. I was at college dealing with an idiotic situation where two people were being lazy and not putting in any effort into the group, and k had previously pulled 2 all-nighters to finish their parts. So I was working until 9:00 at night in the school. And I was really annoyed because I also had to study for finals.

Anyway, I walked through the front door and called out for my sweet boy, as he would usually come rushing halfway down the stairs to greet me. I called his name again and he didn't come, so I started getting concerned. I saw him lying under the desk in the living room and went to touch him only to discover that he was stiff. I immediately panicked and phoned my mom and asked what I should do. I kept on screaming that I could maybe take him to the vet and mom said if he was stiff then it had been a few hours and he was dead. I cried and screamed while my poor mom listened and we agreed to make arrangements to cremate him the next day and my mom would come down.

I was horrified at how cold he was. So, I wrapped him in two blankets and gently lifted his body onto the couch. I ticked him in and said goodnight to him as I went to bed and cried myself to sleep. My mom phoned the next morning to let me know when she was getting closer and I started preparing him. I unwrapped him and brushed his fur on both sides. Kissed him a bunch and put a little flower on top of him. I also snipped off a piece of his fur. Then I wrapped him in the blanket again and put him into his cat carrier.

My mom arrived and we were both crying miserably as we took his body to our humane society to get him cremated. I said a goodbye and gave him one final hug. And now I have to go pick him up again as it's been a couple weeks.

My cat was the most loving, intelligent and sweet little buddy ever. I loved him so much that he was like a child to me. And he always knew I would protect him, and I appreciated that he did because he had trust issues. He also knew exactly what I wanted from him just based on my face alone. I don't know what he died of, but originally I thought he was only 4 years old, as the rescue company told us 4 years ago that he was only a few months old. Now I think he might have been an older cat. Nothing poisoned him, and he was perfectly healthy in the morning. I just think it might have been age, as it is difficult to guess a cat's age if they are not a kitten.

Anyway, I feel as if a part of my heart and soul have been wrenched away from me. I miss him so much and the silence in my apartment is so disturbing to me. I just want to run away from this place. If anyone has any tips, I'm all ears. I completely dread picking him up tomorrow. I don't know if I can handle that.

R.I.P my sweet boy Merric, I hope you know how loved you are. IMG 1028
 
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SadRatQueen

SadRatQueen

Professional Crybaby
Dec 27, 2024
62
Merric seems to be have been well loved and I'm sure you gave him the best life possibly could. He was a very handsome fellow, so thank you for sharing him with us, even if he is no longer here. You two had a wonderful relationship it seems, so my heart breaks for you.

You were a great cat parent, and I'm sure he knew that up until the end.
 
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WhiteRabbit

WhiteRabbit

I'm late, i'm late. For a very important date.
Feb 12, 2019
1,546
I had a similar situation with my dog about a year ago. Feeling him stiff and cold was awful, and I hated that being the last memory of my boy. I will say that things get easier, and now, when I remember him, I don't think of that final awful day anymore. I had him cremated, and he sits on the shelf in my living room. Sometimes, I still talk to him. I don't really believe in the afterlife for people or pets, but it's comforting.

RIP Merric, you looked like a fine gentleman.
 
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kapa

kapa

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Dec 19, 2024
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I have to cats and they mean the world to me. I'm so sorry for your loss. It really seems this beautiful gentlemen had all the love in the world.
 
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wildflowers1996

wildflowers1996

Mage
Oct 14, 2023
561
I'm so sorry to hear this :( he looked a lovely sweet cat and I'm sure he knew how much you love him
 
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LostLily

LostLily

Why do I exist?
Nov 18, 2024
484
Sorry for your loss
 
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lawlietsph

lawlietsph

can we be done here
May 6, 2023
223
I am truly so so so so sorry. 💔
I've lost my dog and two of my cats in 2024, and on top of that my tiny pony was sick the entire year - her disease can kill her any day.
I truly understand your pain.
Holding their little lifeless, cold bodies are something you'll never ever forget.
You loved your cat and that's the only thing that matters. May he rest in piece now with all the other cats, in a way better world than this. 💕
 
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DoneWithThisLife

DoneWithThisLife

Betrayed and Broken
Apr 30, 2024
68
I'm so sorry you have lost your baby Merric. I have lost many pets over the years and have a shelf full of pet ashes urns in my home. You will never forget him but you will always remember the good times and they will make you smile in the years to come.
 
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RiverOfLife

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Nov 7, 2024
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I am so sorry for your loss. He looks like a sweet kitty.
 
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torturedmind

torturedmind

What the hell am I doing here?
Nov 5, 2023
15
I'm so sorry for your loss. He is such a beautiful cat. My cat died a year and a half ago. I came home and had the same situation. She usually would come down the stairs when she heard me get home. Not this time. She even left her toys at the door for me, she used to carry them around. I found her dead in my room, I have no idea what happened to her. She was only six years old. She was still slightly warm, but I knew she was gone. I had my cat cremated, as well. It is a horrible experience, and I am so sorry you are having to go through it. Try not to relive it too much. It was really hard for me to deal with the intrusive thoughts of finding her dead… but it does get better as time passes. Unfortunately, I now deal with major anxiety about my loved ones getting sick and dying. It is a very sad but unpreventable part of life.. all we can do is cherish the time we have with the people and animals that we love so dearly. Sending you love and healing vibes <3
 
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next2n0thing

next2n0thing

unto the heavens
Jan 12, 2025
6
sorry for your loss. i know how painful it is losing a pet; my dog passed away right at the start of covid. the sadness felt like it lasted forever (and still does in a way). being forced to stay indoors didn't help my mental much so i kept myself busy with video games and other things. my brother and i like to joke that he's just away at doggy daycare hamming it up and eating all the treats and foods to his heart's content.

im sure that handsome lil guy merric really loved and appreciated having you as his owner.
 
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goredpet

goredpet

buying time on minimum wage
Jan 11, 2025
63
Merric looks lovely. i'm sorry about your loss. They truly are our best friends
 
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human909

human909

I just want peace
Dec 30, 2024
516
He looks and sounds like a lovely cat, i can't imagine why you are going through right now and im very sorry for your loss.
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
2,686
Hey guys, been a while.

Recently, my cat died a couple weeks ago. It was a horrific situation for me to discover. I was at college dealing with an idiotic situation where two people were being lazy and not putting in any effort into the group, and k had previously pulled 2 all-nighters to finish their parts. So I was working until 9:00 at night in the school. And I was really annoyed because I also had to study for finals.

Anyway, I walked through the front door and called out for my sweet boy, as he would usually come rushing halfway down the stairs to greet me. I called his name again and he didn't come, so I started getting concerned. I saw him lying under the desk in the living room and went to touch him only to discover that he was stiff. I immediately panicked and phoned my mom and asked what I should do. I kept on screaming that I could maybe take him to the vet and mom said if he was stiff then it had been a few hours and he was dead. I cried and screamed while my poor mom listened and we agreed to make arrangements to cremate him the next day and my mom would come down.

I was horrified at how cold he was. So, I wrapped him in two blankets and gently lifted his body onto the couch. I ticked him in and said goodnight to him as I went to bed and cried myself to sleep. My mom phoned the next morning to let me know when she was getting closer and I started preparing him. I unwrapped him and brushed his fur on both sides. Kissed him a bunch and put a little flower on top of him. I also snipped off a piece of his fur. Then I wrapped him in the blanket again and put him into his cat carrier.

My mom arrived and we were both crying miserably as we took his body to our humane society to get him cremated. I said a goodbye and gave him one final hug. And now I have to go pick him up again as it's been a couple weeks.

My cat was the most loving, intelligent and sweet little buddy ever. I loved him so much that he was like a child to me. And he always knew I would protect him, and I appreciated that he did because he had trust issues. He also knew exactly what I wanted from him just based on my face alone. I don't know what he died of, but originally I thought he was only 4 years old, as the rescue company told us 4 years ago that he was only a few months old. Now I think he might have been an older cat. Nothing poisoned him, and he was perfectly healthy in the morning. I just think it might have been age, as it is difficult to guess a cat's age if they are not a kitten.

Anyway, I feel as if a part of my heart and soul have been wrenched away from me. I miss him so much and the silence in my apartment is so disturbing to me. I just want to run away from this place. If anyone has any tips, I'm all ears. I completely dread picking him up tomorrow. I don't know if I can handle that.

R.I.P my sweet boy Merric, I hope you know how loved you are. View attachment 158097
Our calico cat died in January 2005, it nearly killed us
 
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butimstillsoblue

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Dec 27, 2024
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Merric was lucky to have you. I'm so so sorry he's gone. I understand your pain, having also been through it. Especially the silence upon arriving home.

Nothing will ever replace Merric, but I've found the best thing for me has been to adopt another fur kid as soon as I can. It's been the only thing that has helped the pain.
 
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