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CoffinDance
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- Aug 10, 2020
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Hi!
This is my goodbye thread. My bus is arriving on Tuesday morning.
I recently turned 18, but despite my young age, I have been suffering from depression for many years. Although no one really gave me a specific diagnosis because I have many different symptoms. I have been to many specialists, I have been taking and taking medications, and I have been visiting psychologists and therapy. Unfortunately, this did not ease my suicidal thoughts.
I have described my feelings in the last days in the SS lounge thread, if you have read this, you know that I feel good and calm, but also tired and hopeless. Of course, I also feel fear, but since I still feel derealization, this feeling dominates and covers other feelings, which is helpful. :D I'm spending my last days happily. I eat what I want, do what I want, slack off, read and watch positive series and anime. I also play games.
Okay, so I'm ctb with SN, which is really cheap and easy to buy in my country. I didn't tested the product but I know from the seller that the purity is 98.5%. As for the consistency, it is clumpy.
Unfortunately I do not have antiemetic, i have only SN, milk of magnesia and pain killers. I believe this is enough. I'm going to do it in a meadow under a tree near my house, I will take blankets and a pillow that is a gift from my best friend. I'll also send the delayed email to the police where my body is located. Most likely 5 hours after taking SN. I don't plan any farewell letter, I'll just leave a note saying "sorry". I'm going to listen to my favorite music. Oh, I almost forgot, I'm going to take mouthwash too.
I am not sure about the amount of SN to take. I weigh 84 kilograms and I am 165 cm tall. Should I take 20 or 25 grams? Or maybe something in between? How many grams should the second dose have?
I would like to describe my feelings before and after taking SN. I admit that I am not so afraid of this method, because I have read the feelings of other users and I know what to expect. I hope that my description will also help someone. To protect site I will use tor browser and log out.
I will update the thread, and I will be happy to answer your questions.
This is my goodbye thread. My bus is arriving on Tuesday morning.
I recently turned 18, but despite my young age, I have been suffering from depression for many years. Although no one really gave me a specific diagnosis because I have many different symptoms. I have been to many specialists, I have been taking and taking medications, and I have been visiting psychologists and therapy. Unfortunately, this did not ease my suicidal thoughts.
I have described my feelings in the last days in the SS lounge thread, if you have read this, you know that I feel good and calm, but also tired and hopeless. Of course, I also feel fear, but since I still feel derealization, this feeling dominates and covers other feelings, which is helpful. :D I'm spending my last days happily. I eat what I want, do what I want, slack off, read and watch positive series and anime. I also play games.
Okay, so I'm ctb with SN, which is really cheap and easy to buy in my country. I didn't tested the product but I know from the seller that the purity is 98.5%. As for the consistency, it is clumpy.
Unfortunately I do not have antiemetic, i have only SN, milk of magnesia and pain killers. I believe this is enough. I'm going to do it in a meadow under a tree near my house, I will take blankets and a pillow that is a gift from my best friend. I'll also send the delayed email to the police where my body is located. Most likely 5 hours after taking SN. I don't plan any farewell letter, I'll just leave a note saying "sorry". I'm going to listen to my favorite music. Oh, I almost forgot, I'm going to take mouthwash too.
I am not sure about the amount of SN to take. I weigh 84 kilograms and I am 165 cm tall. Should I take 20 or 25 grams? Or maybe something in between? How many grams should the second dose have?
I would like to describe my feelings before and after taking SN. I admit that I am not so afraid of this method, because I have read the feelings of other users and I know what to expect. I hope that my description will also help someone. To protect site I will use tor browser and log out.
I will update the thread, and I will be happy to answer your questions.