My brain won’t stop

[zeldalover]

I'm so upset. I just came from urgent care because I've been having sinus infection symptoms that have been getting worse and worse for over 2 weeks and basically got told I was faking it and made to feel like they were prescribing antibiotics to humor me and that I was being overdramatic. The tricky thing is is that my OCD does trick me like this sometimes so I never really know if I'm actually sick enough so I avoid going to a doctor unless I truly believe that I need it, and I believed it today. I did end up picking up my antibiotics but I don't even know if I'm going to take them because now I feel like I'm fucking delusional. There's no point, and I literally just want to wait to get really sick and just fucking die even though I know that's incredibly unlikely in and of itself.

 

[MalboroMan420]

That's why I stopped going to the doctors. Nobody believed me and it made me question my own sanity. I was ridiculed and laughed at. taking the antibiotics would hurt, but if u let your immune system fight it for you, it'll take awhile but it'll clear it. I rarely get sick now as my immune system has basically encounter every sickness, multiple times, and has gotten real good at nipping it in the bud before it gets a problem. I maybe feel like crap for a day or 2 at most

 

[soonatpeace777888]

OCD is a TRICK your mind is playing on you. That is the most important thing to keep in mind. If you tell yourself its a trick it makes it better. It seems to have something to do with a chemical called Serotonin in our brains. This is why SSRIs can be somewhat effective in countering the OCD.

 

[FuneralCry]

That does sound really awful and tiring what you are going through, existing here certainly can be so torturous as after all there is no relief from ourselves and our thoughts. But anyway best wishes.

 

[Sweet Tart]

Aww urgent care can be such a crapshoot. A bad sinus infection is horrible, and if you say it's been worsening, I believe you and think it's worth treating with the antibiotics. But I hope you get some relief with or without them.