My brain will take any little thing as a valid reason to CTB

[ChiseHatori]

Most recently, a roommate wanted to switch rooms with me because my space is a bit bigger. I said no initially but now I feel really guilty, like I'm in the way and if I just went through with CTB they'd at least get their space. I always, always feel guilt about taking up space or even just wasting oxygen, honestly.

I really don't provide much for anybody even if they pity me and try to tell me otherwise. I'm still convinced it would be better without me here, even though I know some would grieve me and I know how much it hurts. It's all really conflicting.

 

[PhilosopherInAV0id]

I feel this a lot as well. I believe that my life is so far gone at this point that anything I do to prolong my life is simply inflicting torture on others, in one way or another, leading me to see almost anything as a ctb reason. Yeah, some people might miss me, but even that is temporary, and within a month or so they would move on. It might seem sad to some, but by this point I have accepted the grave as my home. The only question is when I shall return.