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fkyou

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Oct 1, 2022
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Is anyone here their reason to ctb is their brain..I have a perfectionist mentality that tortured me..my brain sees the flaws in everything and when it does it doesn't let go...it sees the shortcomings of my life as failures...this is what is partially driving me to suicide.. it doesn't let me be happy my brain can read how much pros and cons there's in my life and shows me the cons are heavier..thus convinsing me peace of death is better/ more honorable ..how do normal people live think normally I can't get over things..I can't live with this mentality
 
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daddypleaseeatme15

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Dec 9, 2025
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Yeah i know what u mean perfectionism can definitely be a huge curse even if your life is going well and it's way better than many u can never see the actual good in it cuz u only compare yourself whith what's better instead of appreciating and being grateful for what u already have which many others only wish they did
 
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Siamese Believe

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My brain is one of many reasons but not my only reason. I have ADHD, crippling autism and social anxiety. My IQ is also below average.
 
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wordsoutb4sumnelsin

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Dec 7, 2025
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Well psychologically, survival instinct is why we INSTINCTIVELY see negatives more/as bigger than positives. Stupid effin living being ish... But also fwiw from a therapist, the perfectionism, constantly noting imperfection in ourselves and outside, likely unable to feel the positive for oneself... Tends to mainly be responsibility of who/how a human was developed/raised. Parents, if they know enough and are able to themselves can nip this, lean into the opposite: Love, acceptance, allowance. Allowing for imperfection, even getting to seeing beauty in everything not just "being white" - there being some "black" too and thus all the layers of grey in between... IDK, i've been on both sides of the fence. All is real and valid fwiw...
My brain is one of many reasons but not my only reason. I have ADHD, crippling autism and social anxiety. My IQ is also below average.
Eff IQ! Not an well encompassing test, especially for a neuroatypical!
 
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Apr 18, 2022
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Same, I dont like how my brain sees things
It is so tiring, envy normal people who have normal brains
 
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