Venting my best friend finally CTB and I don't know what to do.

[bluupup]

she did it. her girlfriend CTB by SN and she decided she was going to CTB. she's already died twice by heroin overdose and mustard gas, but been resuscitated. she tried to get hit by a train. she hasn't responded to any of my messages and I'm so scared. I feel so bad for her, she has the worst trauma I've ever heard of, and I genuinely don't know what to do. I cant call the facility she lives in, and she obviously wont answer the phone. I'm so sad. I feel angry at myself because I cant even cry for her. I cant cry at all at this point and I know I sound like some edgy teen but I just cant, and i feel so bad. I don't even want to break the news to some of our mutual friends, especially not my sister. I don't know what to do. please, I need advice.

 

[unluckysadness]

So sad I hope you'll find peace whatever you'll decide.

 

[bluupup]

So sad I hope you'll find peace whatever you'll decide.

Thank you. I genuinely don't know what to do.

 

[IHateTheBeach]

I can relate I can't cry anymore even if I tried. I can't even feel sad. I feel like that I am a zombie. You can listen to sad music if you want to feel something. If I am there I may hugged you. Idk what to say sorry. Really sorry.

 

[Echo]

How long has she been out of contact with you for? Maybe she hasnt ctb but is in a depressive state and cant communicate right now. I dont know her obviously and just guessing.

 

[bluupup]

18 hours.

 

[N-methylamphetamine]

she did it. her girlfriend CTB by SN and she decided she was going to CTB. she's already died twice by heroin overdose and mustard gas, but been resuscitated. she tried to get hit by a train. she hasn't responded to any of my messages and I'm so scared. I feel so bad for her, she has the worst trauma I've ever heard of, and I genuinely don't know what to do. I cant call the facility she lives in, and she obviously wont answer the phone. I'm so sad. I feel angry at myself because I cant even cry for her. I cant cry at all at this point and I know I sound like some edgy teen but I just cant, and i feel so bad. I don't even want to break the news to some of our mutual friends, especially not my sister. I don't know what to do. please, I need advice.

im sorry for your loss

 

[Redhand5]

she did it. her girlfriend CTB by SN and she decided she was going to CTB. she's already died twice by heroin overdose and mustard gas, but been resuscitated. she tried to get hit by a train. she hasn't responded to any of my messages and I'm so scared. I feel so bad for her, she has the worst trauma I've ever heard of, and I genuinely don't know what to do. I cant call the facility she lives in, and she obviously wont answer the phone. I'm so sad. I feel angry at myself because I cant even cry for her. I cant cry at all at this point and I know I sound like some edgy teen but I just cant, and i feel so bad. I don't even want to break the news to some of our mutual friends, especially not my sister. I don't know what to do. please, I need advice.

That point of not knowing can be the worst. You have my sympathies. I can only imagine what that particular pain feels like. Hopefully you get some information on it soon.