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I have access to 590MG morphine sulphate pills, how can i use them to die, Clonazepam, uh, I can access 10mg or a decent amount, but I can only access benzodiazepines, not other medications, I have zolpidem too, 140mg of it, please help me, I know ODs fail badly but this is what i think could be helpful
 
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I have access to 590MG morphine sulphate pills, how can i use them to die, Clonazepam, uh, I can access 10mg or a decent amount, but I can only access benzodiazepines, not other medications, I have zolpidem too, 140mg of it, please help me, I know ODs fail badly but this is what i think could be helpful
I dont think morphine is strong enough to reliably take that chance
 
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whether morphine OD is fatal or not depends on tolerance, dose, etc... since tolerance is the unknown factor, and naloxone can reverse the morphine OD, it's a gamble imo.

benzo od generally won't be fatal (tho even still, nonfatality can't be guaranteed, and vice versa)
 
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I dont think morphine is strong enough to reliably take that chance
Idk if this helps, but my body weight is low so i have very low reserves, my bmi is 13.5 or something, and im opioid naive, a teenager
whether morphine OD is fatal or not depends on tolerance, dose, etc... since tolerance is the unknown factor, and naloxone can reverse the morphine OD, it's a gamble imo.

benzo od generally won't be fatal (tho even still, nonfatality can't be guaranteed, and vice versa)
I mentioned benzos so that yall can tell if some combinations helps me to achieve the desired result because morphine alone might not be able to do it,also my bmi is 13.5 so ig my body has less reserves, does that help
 
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Idk if this helps, but my body weight is low so i have very low reserves, my bmi is 13.5 or something, and im opioid naive, a teenager
hi, this site is intended for adults.

also a bmi of 13.5 is critically low iirc.
 
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Idk if this helps, but my body weight is low so i have very low reserves, my bmi is 13.5 or something, and im opioid naive, a teenager

I mentioned benzos so that yall can tell if some combinations helps me to achieve the desired result because morphine alone might not be able to do it,also my bmi is 13.5 so ig my body has less reserves, does that help
Man don't to try to CTB if you're still a teenager.
 
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As a teen, you can be living a completely different life a few years from now & feel completely different about absolutely everything. Your brain is still developing & won't be fully developed until you're 25. This is not the time to CTB. I encourage you to seek help to get on a different path, and to check out the recovery part of the site.
 
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Man don't to try to CTB if you're still a teenager.
Argh, I've tried everything I guess, my parents have passed away, there is literally nothing left behind, my family members are not so good and I wish to leave but yeah your concern makes sense too
Im
hi, this site is intended for adults.

also a bmi of 13.5 is critically low iirc.
19, which is considered teenage and adult as well so….. and hi :)
 
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I have access to 590MG morphine sulphate pills, how can i use them to die, Clonazepam, uh, I can access 10mg or a decent amount, but I can only access benzodiazepines, not other medications, I have zolpidem too, 140mg of it, please help me, I know ODs fail badly but this is what i think could be helpful
Hi there! Let's focus on the morphine since it's the closest one you can get to CTB.

Morphine sulphate have LD50 (lethal dose for 50% of population) by 600 mg/kg (oral, mouse). Reverting the LD50 from mouse to humans is 600 x 0,081 = 48,6 mg/kg, can be roughed into 50 mg/kg. Assuming you weigh around 70 kg, you only need 3,5 g morphine sulphate for it to work (assuming that the one you get is pure one).

So no, that is not enough for you to CTB.

Argh, I've tried everything I guess, my parents have passed away, there is literally nothing left behind, my family members are not so good and I wish to leave but yeah your concern makes sense too
Im

19, which is considered teenage and adult as well so….. and hi :)
Sorry about your experience, we can get you some emotional help by venting here.

Please don't torture yourself with failed OD.

As a teen, you can be living a completely different life a few years from now & feel completely different about absolutely everything. Your brain is still developing & won't be fully developed until you're 25. This is not the time to CTB. I encourage you to seek help to get on a different path, and to check out the recovery part of the site.
IMO you should not be here mate, this is an adult-only forum.
If you have any more questions you can ask here. Thanks!
 
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Hi there! Let's focus on the morphine since it's the closest one you can get to CTB.

Morphine sulphate have LD50 (lethal dose for 50% of population) by 600 mg/kg (oral, mouse). Reverting the LD50 from mouse to humans is 600 x 0,081 = 48,6 mg/kg, can be roughed into 50 mg/kg. Assuming you weigh around 70 kg, you only need 3,5 g morphine sulphate for it to work (assuming that the one you get is pure one).

So no, that is not enough for you to CTB.


Sorry about your experience, we can get you some emotional help by venting here.

Please don't torture yourself with failed OD.


IMO you should not be here mate, this is an adult-only forum.
If you have any more questions you can ask here. Thanks!
My weight is actually 47kg, so I think I need 2350mg of morphine, and just morphine would be enough? No combinations with anything? I can get some benzos, although going over going 10mg would be tough, I have Xanax, Clonazepam, and zolpidem too, and how does morphine even taste? Because i think i would need to crush them
 
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My weight is actually 47kg, so I think I need 2350mg of morphine, and just morphine would be enough? No combinations with anything? I can get some benzos, although going over going 10mg would be tough, I have Xanax, Clonazepam, and zolpidem too, and how does morphine even taste? Because i think i would need to crush them
I can't really answer the questions about the taste of each medicine since I didn't take any of the meds you mentioned.

You can combine morphine with alcohol or benzos though, but the one you had is just way less to achieve CTB.
 
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Argh, I've tried everything I guess, my parents have passed away, there is literally nothing left behind, my family members are not so good and I wish to leave but yeah your concern makes sense too
Im

19, which is considered teenage and adult as well so….. and hi :)
hi, good to know ur 19 and not below the minimum of 18
 
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I can't really answer the questions about the taste of each medicine since I didn't take any of the meds you mentioned.

You can combine morphine with alcohol or benzos though, but the one you had is just way less to achieve CTB.
Does tapentadol help, I have more than 4000mg of it, I've heard that its potency is half of morphine, so like 4000mg tapentadol should be equivalent to 2000mg (~) of morphine, which would get my total morphine quantity to 2500+ mg of morphine with some benzos
hi, good to know ur 19 and not below the minimum of 18
Yeah I just got verified by a moderator, also, do you have any idea about tapentadol, if it could help me? I have 4350mg of it, I've heard that it also a decently potent opioid, will it help me to CTB with morphine?
 
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Does tapentadol help, I have more than 4000mg of it, I've heard that its potency is half of morphine, so like 4000mg tapentadol should be equivalent to 2000mg (~) of morphine, which would get my total morphine quantity to 2500+ mg of morphine with some benzos

Yeah I just got verified by a moderator, also, do you have any idea about tapentadol, if it could help me? I have 4350mg of it, I've heard that it also a decently potent opioid, will it help me to CTB with morphine?
After much searching (thanks PubChem for having your server down), I found this paper that says LD50 of tapentadol approx. 350 mg/kg in mice. Dose conversion from above shows that the LD50 for humans is around 350 x 0,081 = 28,35 mg/kg, can be roughed into 30 mg/kg. If your weight is 47 kg, you only need 1410 mg of tapentadol at least to have 50% chance to kill yourself. Combine that with your morphine I think it's enough to achieve CTB.

Problem was, how do you ingest all of them simultaneously....
 
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After much searching (thanks PubChem for having your server down), I found this paper that says LD50 of tapentadol approx. 350 mg/kg in mice. Dose conversion from above shows that the LD50 for humans is around 350 x 0,081 = 28,35 mg/kg, can be roughed into 30 mg/kg. If your weight is 47 kg, you only need 1410 mg of tapentadol at least to have 50% chance to kill yourself. Combine that with your morphine I think it's enough to achieve CTB.

Problem was, how do you ingest all of them simultaneously....
Does a hollow pipe work? Not a pipe actually, one of these flexible tubes? To like get it near my oropharynx or trachea and then pass the liquid in which the morphine and tapentadol is mixed in powder form, so that I don't vomit it out because of the ugly taste and bypass the tongue entirely, but I think I will not be able to do it in one go, so I would need to practice this tube thing with plain water to see if it actually works or not and if it does… yeah
 
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Does a hollow pipe work? Not a pipe actually, one of these flexible tubes? To like get it near my oropharynx or trachea and then pass the liquid in which the morphine and tapentadol is mixed in powder form, so that I don't vomit it out because of the ugly taste and bypass the tongue entirely, but I think I will not be able to do it in one go, so I would need to practice this tube thing with plain water to see if it actually works or not and if it does… yeah
You can try a tongue cover or lidocaine spray for example.
 
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Also like, what could be the time frame here, I live with my family members in my house, I can't go to hotel or something, how many hrs will lead me to a point of no return? Like after how much time will it be over for me? If it is 6-8 hrs then it good, if it's more, I'll have to see, any rough estimate would be helpful
Also, is there a chance of becoming a vegetable here? Is it high? Or less likely to occur? Thank you for helping me
Also like, what could be the time frame here, I live with my family members in my house, I can't go to hotel or something, how many hrs will lead me to a point of no return? Like after how much time will it be over for me? If it is 6-8 hrs then it good, if it's more, I'll have to see, any rough estimate would be helpful

Also, is there a chance of becoming a vegetable here? Is it high? Or less likely to occur?
 
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