Discussion Moments before CTB

[dogemn]

What do you think your last few moments before you CTB will be? Will you be absolutely terrified, ambivalent, regret it and try to turn it back, call emergency, etc?

 

[124afun15]

I remember it being very sad and wishful that things had been different.

That was years ago though now I feel more in tune with my own power and ability to create and change situations.

 

[rdelia_]

talking from experience, when i tried to CBT for the first time, i was absolutely terrified. i drank lots of pills that i dont even know what will it do to me, it was really clumsy and my head was very dizzy aswell with my stomach working up, then i passed out. i probably thought that i really did died.

but after twice and thrice, i dont think ill ever get the same feelings when i tried for the first times...

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd only be so relieved to never suffer in this terrible, torturous existence ever again, to suffer in this existence will always be the most terrible, cruel mistake no matter what, I'll always see it as an abomination to suffer in this existence, all that existence ever does is torture existing beings with no limit as to how much agony one can feel. I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me in non-existence, only the peace of non-existence could ever be positive for me, I just want non-existence to save me from all future suffering in this existence that is just waiting to die anyway.

 

[Forveleth]

Considering I was nice and calm for my first two attempts, probably more of that.

 

[GodzillasBiggestFan]

i usually got very scared and anxious before attempting

 

[dogemn]

i usually got very scared and anxious before attempting

Same. But I also felt like that the first time I injected heroin so I'd just push through it like I did that time. Mind over matter.