misunderstood

[TheHolySword]

No one will understand what it's like to not be able to be helped until it's too late for them too. How many therapists and different medications do I need to take until it's okay for me to stop seeking help? People really expect me to just keep trying different therapists, keep searching for different prescriptions. For some reason they think because an option exists that it has to be a solution somewhere. I have no one in my life anymore that isn't family. I told my brother I have no one else to go to and he said I could. That I'm choosing misery. And he's right in a way, I am choosing misery. But I cannot reasonably try everything. Nothing has ever helped me but he says that doesn't mean nothing will ever help. I love him so much. His life has been more hell than mine and he's probably just as suicidal but he's seen progress in therapy and with medication and I never did. And as much as he suffers he can't comprehend the idea that I can't be helped. I feel like I can't even talk to him anymore. Now I truly have no one.

 

[ventingfrustrations]

Yeah even if I talk with family I know that I'm a piece of shit in my mind and i just feel worse afterwards

 

[divinemistress87]

I understand this . People assume the magic treatment is just waiting and to keep being a guniea pig. Of course our brains stay in misery its familiar and we have been let down and lost hope. Ive been on like 20 different meds, tms, ketamine, other weird alternative treatments, and ECT. Yet still told some magic treatment out of nowhere is going to help. Even other mentally ill friends dont understand as they have found treatment that has helped