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flaral

flaral

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Nov 2, 2025
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Failed od attempt. I know ods don't work 99% of the time but I was just so fucking miserable I couldn't handle the idea of living another day and I honestly didn't care about any pain I which I could get i just wanted to die, so I just swallowed as many pills as I could, laid on the bathroom floor and closed my eyes, hoping this suffering would be over. But in the end i just ended up waking up in the hospital. I fail at everything even killing my self. I'm really fucking tired.
 
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tonicer

tonicer

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Nov 13, 2025
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Yeah most suicide options are terribly unreliable and the reliable ones are difficult to get your hands on. Who found you? Do you live with someone else?
 
tonicer

tonicer

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Nov 13, 2025
318
Why do you want to traumatize your mother? Is she not good to you?
I am waiting for my mother to die before i end it. Even if it means waiting for 10 or so years i can't hurt her by finding my corpse.
 

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