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[anomic]

Hey guys!

I'm in a major depressive episode at the moment and I feel quite horrible. I just feel like such a failure. I feel so disappointed in myself since I can't even keep up with basic responsibilities in my life. I just feel like I'm almost not made for this world and like this world is too difficult for me. I feel so different from everyone else and I have such a hard time understanding people and I just don't understand how you're supposed to even make friends let alone understand how they feel and micromanage the entire relationship.

I don't really know the point of this post I guess I'd like some advice or some people to relate to me or validate me. I don't know anything would help.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm sorry you are struggling so much at the moment. I can relate to you finding everything so difficult. I'm just letting everything I can go at the moment. I don't know whether I'm just lazy or whether there's a legitimate cause for me to be so lethargic but, I don't really even care enough either way. I just do the tinniest amounts I can get away with each day. I guess I'll reach a point where I can't get away with it anymore but, I'll just have to deal with that when it comes.

Regarding friends, I'm fairly reclusive now. I'm guessing you're younger and in situations where you are forced to socialise. I imagine a lot of us find it hard, with social anxiety and whatever else going on. It's a cliche but, I've found that sharing a common interest helps in making friends. Also, just practically speaking, it's unlikely all around you will become friends. Sometimes, it's maybe enough just to be pleasant but not expect more necessarily.

I'm not sure any of that helped really but, know you're not alone in struggling.

 

[anomic]

I'm not sure any of that helped really but, know you're not alone in struggling.

Thank you a lot for the message it helped a bit and if nothing else it at least helped me feel way less alone. I find that just even feeling less alone helps me half way through the dark times so again thank you :) I'll try out doing tiny things each day and just try to at least talk once each time I'm in a social situation and see how it goes.

 

[NameOfAction]

Same boat, bud. Currently reviewing any and all psychopharmacological options available to me. Got rid of my doctors and trying to DIY this shit, because I'm tired of them trying me on SSRIs over and over to no effect.

Basically I sing and play when I can't handle shit anymore. And read about badass historical people doing badass shit. Cope and breathe until my mind shifts into place. Or if it doesn't, well. Time will tell. Usually I feel less dead come spring

 

[alstroemeria55]

Me too. I don't feel like I belong in this world. I'm technically functioning but I struggle with myself every day. I should be doing my assignments instead of procrastinating but all I can do is just distract myself from all the horrible shit I'm feeling.
I hope things get better for you.