Mentally, it as as though I already ctb'd

[Sphinxi]

It feels like I already did ctb. And I am just living a shell of a life. Nothing is worth putting effort into, because I was suicidal for so long. I've already accepted that I am going to ctb. Nothing in life is worth putting in effort towards, because of this.

I knew I was going to ctb since I was young. Every year, I am disappointed that I did not ctb the year previously, it feels like I am living a dead person's life. I hope one day soon, I can jump. Every time I visit that bridge, I feel myself more willing to jump. I think I am going to visit again tomorrow. If you do not hear from me for a few weeks, assume that I finally mustered enough courage, and allowed my body to submit to my mind.

 

[itsgone2]

well put. I feel the same way
I've accepted this is how I'll die. Just need to get it done

 

[guessilldie]

It feels like I already did ctb. And I am just living a shell of a life. Nothing is worth putting effort into, because I was suicidal for so long. I've already accepted that I am going to ctb. Nothing in life is worth putting in effort towards, because of this.

I knew I was going to ctb since I was young. Every year, I am disappointed that I did not ctb the year previously, it feels like I am living a dead person's life. I hope one day soon, I can jump. Every time I visit that bridge, I feel myself more willing to jump. I think I am going to visit again tomorrow. If you do not hear from me for a few weeks, assume that I finally mustered enough courage, and allowed my body to submit to my mind.

I just turned 30. Feel the same way friend. I never thought i see 18. Feels like i'm not supposed to be here. Don't want to give you advice but i tell you what i'm doing to make it "easier". Put away some money for my funeral and other stuff and just burning through my money like nothing matters. Trying out exotic food, buying meaningless stuff from fucking temu. It kinda feels liberating

 

[cursedlife]

poverty and mental illness made my life hell , I consider myself to have already died socially, suicide will be the final act

 

[lpdsvm]

After I found a good method, I fear everything less, and I just do what I think is correct.

 

[Chronical_Suicidal]

You're not alone, life seems irremediably broken and pointless.

 

[unendingempty]

I feel exactly the same way. It's like I'm a corpse being drug around for the amusement of the people who claim to love me.