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“I’ve been digging my own grave for years”
- May 21, 2025
- 680
I feel like any mental diagnosis will be the final straw for me to kill myself.
At first I thought hoping for some type of cancer or diabetes diagnosis would do it, but I honestly think some bitch in a lab coat confirming Im autistic or schizo or some shit would be more realistic.
I already have HIV and Im borderline 'tarded for fuck sakes, there's no way Im living my whole life with multiple diseases/diagnoses/ailments that won't kill me ASAP. Shit is beyond redundant. Life is not that serious to me.
At first I thought hoping for some type of cancer or diabetes diagnosis would do it, but I honestly think some bitch in a lab coat confirming Im autistic or schizo or some shit would be more realistic.
I already have HIV and Im borderline 'tarded for fuck sakes, there's no way Im living my whole life with multiple diseases/diagnoses/ailments that won't kill me ASAP. Shit is beyond redundant. Life is not that serious to me.
