Discussion Memory of Normal

[itsgone2]

Anyone here have periods of normality? I've always had suicidal thoughts and generally don't enjoy life, but I've had long runs of being normal. Just doing the day to day stuff people do, for years. It wasn't that long ago and I remember it well. Now I barely eat, barely move, every room in my house needs cleaned and I have no desire to do it. I used to clean every day. Exercise. Read. Now I'm pissed I don't have the courage to ctb. There are reasons I'm in this spot, reasons I was basically ignoring for too long. But it's weird to have had it and lost it.

 

[Hollowman]

Very relatable unfortunately. It's been a while since I've functioned "normally" though. It's hard to remember what it's like too.

 

[EmptyBottle]

Yep, now, several months of near normality. Tho once in a while, the idea of CTB pops in and out.

 

[amygdala]

I strongly relate to this. It's strange to think back 10 years ago. I was much higher functioning then. It makes me wonder about how I was able to do everything. Nowadays I feel like I could never do the things I was doing at that time. I feel something inside me broke and I haven't been the same since.

I'm sorry you're going through this @itsgone2 . It's hard to feel this way. I hope things get better for you.

 

[Kitsuné_]

Its common i suppose. Some days are complete shit and some others u think wow im almost normal

But even in this good days u know the deal, and dont get too exited