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Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒恄薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,012
I am overwhelmed with sadness, grief and melancholy... I'm so tired... all the goddamn time and no one fucking cares how hard it's been just to hold on so people don't see me die.

It's inevitable... I've only been holding off because I care about people... but it doesn't matter ... eventually they'll forgive me and move on ... I'll just be another lost memory... we all will.
 
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Nightfoot

Mage
Aug 7, 2025
549
Sorry you're suffering so badly. Wish I could say something that would help. You don't deserve the pain you're in.
 
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microwaved_dawg

Certified dumbass
Nov 22, 2024
55
It's really sad when people don't care about you the same way you care about them. Maybe you should start doing things for you, like trying to break free of the depression cycle, I know it's hard, but it's well worth it when necessary.

Many hugs for you, hope you eventually stop feeling this pain. <3
 
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Greyhawk

Student
Jan 3, 2025
171
I know how you feel. I had hopes and dreams but right now pretty much the only thing keeping me from killing myself is that I don't want to hurt my family and friends. They would eventually get over it though.
 
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