Maybe today

[Ready2goGermany]

Right now I feel like trying it these next few hours if I can find the courage. I can't stand spending another christmas lonely, depressed and nobody cares. I've got my rope prepared and will attach it to my closet bar which seems to be pretty Solid. Maybe there are some people herr who would like to be on my side until I finally put the head into the noose

 

[Carina]

Whatever you decide, people will be around here.

Sometimes it could help if you think of Christmas as just another day, just as an option too.

 

[Lady black]

Whatever you do, I wish you good luck. i decided for life for now, but nobody knows waht will be one day. You are not alone

 

[Ready2goGermany]

I guess the decision is pretty much made. I just can't see any reason to be alive any more. I know it will be hard but also a relief once I black out

 

[Lady black]

Sad that you have to do this before christmas

 

[TearyEyedQueen]

I wish your suffering to end no matter what you decide. Sending you hugs :')

 

[jgm63]

If you decide to proceed then wishing you a safe journey

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

You can spend the Christmas on this site, there's a thread and people would be there..
I know it's not the same but I thought you should know.

 

[Ready2goGermany]

You can spend the Christmas on this site, there's a thread and people would be there..
I know it's not the same but I thought you should know.

But that wouldn't solve the problem. I still would want to die afterwards so why should I wait?

 

[BlueWidow]

I'm so sorry it's come to this for you, particularly at this time of the year. I know it makes everything seem worse than usual somehow. Whatever you decide to do, we will all be here for you. I hope you find what you are seeking. I send you my love and support.

 

[Ready2goGermany]

 

[Carina]

If you do decide to continue, I hope you find the peace and happiness you didn't find in life.

If you decide to wait, people will be around here.

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

But that wouldn't solve the problem. I still would want to die afterwards so why should I wait?

I am not telling you what to do. Just telling there's a possibility to feel less alone during Christmas, we are all in the same boat here. Many people here don't have anyone to spend time during Christmas.

 

[Ready2goGermany]

I know but I'm at a point on which I know that it won't get any better any more. There is a lot of noice in the hallway near my appartement, so I'll wait a little longer. I don't know if it 'll be loud when I' m fainting

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

I know but I'm at a point on which I know that it won't get any better any more. There is a lot of noice in the hallway near my appartement, so I'll wait a little longer. I don't know if it 'll be loud when I' m fainting

Is it partial? I tried it multiple times, it's basically strangling yourself, for me it's too hard.

 

[lmroch]

I know but I'm at a point on which I know that it won't get any better any more. There is a lot of noice in the hallway near my appartement, so I'll wait a little longer. I don't know if it 'll be loud when I' m fainting

 

[Ready2goGermany]

Yes it is. I would have prefered full hanging but I don't have an opportunity here to get it done. I'm quite nervous about if it will work and hurt

 

[Lady black]

It could hurt if it won´t work good. So be sure everything works

 

[Ready2goGermany]

If it doesn't I'll let you know. But I pray it dies quickly

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

Yes it is. I would have prefered full hanging but I don't have an opportunity here to get it done. I'm quite nervous about if it will work and hurt

We will be here for you
Whatever happens next

 

[Ready2goGermany]

We will be here for you
Whatever happens next

Thank you ❤

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

I'll send you a hug. Please, I've spent last New Year's Eve alone with my cat. Just listened to music and watched some movies. Nothing too interesting.

 

[Ready2goGermany]

I've decided to go at midnight. So 35 more minutes
I've decided to go at midnight. So 35 more minutes

 

[Azzy69]

hugs

 

[Sensei]

But that wouldn't solve the problem. I still would want to die afterwards so why should I wait?

You know your life situation better than I do, so only you know what's the right thing to do. I can tell that you suffer deeply and that you feel agony. But do you really want to die? Also, I get the impression that you are very depressed and emotional right now because Christmas is approaching. Wouldn't it be a good idea to wait a little and think it through when you are a little less depressed and emotional?

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

I've decided to go at midnight. So 35 more minutes
I've decided to go at midnight. So 35 more minutes

How are you going to spend this time?

 

[Ready2goGermany]

You know your life situation better than I do, so only you know what's the right thing to do. I can tell that you suffer deeply and that you feel agony. But do you really want to die? Also, I get the impression that you are very depressed and emotional right now because Christmas is approaching. Wouldn't it be a good idea to wait a little and think it through when you are a little less depressed and emotional?

Yes I do want to die tonight and there's no way back
I'm listening to some music and read your kind messages which help me to calm down. Now I know I'm ready

 

[Skyview]

I'll be spending Christmas alone , same as you , my philosophy is this "don't let the bastards grind you down." Fuck Christmas it's just another day . We all have days when we want to end it , MeltingHeart left a profound message for all of us "don't give up , go and enjoy life , " do this for her my friend , she meant a lot to this forum .

 

[Ready2goGermany]

I know but in the end she couldn't find a different way either and I know that I will come back to this point again and again
I know but in the end she couldn't find a different way either and I know that I will come back to this point again and again

 

[Sensei]

Yes I do want to die tonight and there's no way back
I'm listening to some music and read your kind messages which help me to calm down. Now I know I'm ready

I'm sad to hear that, but if that is your wish and if it will give you relief, I'm happy for you. There's no shame in chaning your mind, but you know best. If you decide to go, gute Nacht, mein Freund.