Help Maybe someone has any tips how to prepare my family for my end?

[Onio]

When my mother's father passed away from cancer almost a year ago, it crushed my family. Half a year later, I had an attempt and saw how they were broken again, especially my mother. I know losses are forgotten with time, but I don't wanna hurt my family, but I can't stand this existence anymore. It is just pure suffering, and I have thoughts about killing or cutting myself every second. I tried my best to live as much time as I could for my loved ones, but now I'm just tired and can't go on.

So maybe you have any ideas on how to ease my end for them?
Thanks for reading.

 

[meddle]

well my guesses are:
1) writing a nice thoughtful note. maybe even record a video
2) save money for your cremation or burial
3) write down in details how you wish to be buried or cremated. i mean what do you want to wear during funeral, what kind of tombstone do you want... stuff like that

oh and also dont ctb in your home. choose hotel instead. so your family can continue to live in your home without disturbing memories

 

[Leorio Paradinight]

I struggle with this myself. I've lost someone before and being completely blindsighted by it, a note from them would have helped me process everything a little bit better, so I know I'll be leaving one for the people I'm worried about.

My only issue is that I can never write one I'm satisfied with.

 

[Weird username]

When my mother's father passed away from cancer almost a year ago, it crushed my family. Half a year later, I had an attempt and saw how they were broken again, especially my mother. I know losses are forgotten with time, but I don't wanna hurt my family, but I can't stand this existence anymore. It is just pure suffering, and I have thoughts about killing or cutting myself every second. I tried my best to live as much time as I could for my loved ones, but now I'm just tired and can't go on.

So maybe you have any ideas on how to ease my end for them?
Thanks for reading.

Have you tried medication first? It does sound like it may help
Hugs to you