Discussion Maybe some people were never meant to exist

[MissWannaLive]

As in the topic this is my take. I've been thinking with yet another break down that maybe the suicidal people were just never meant to live in the first place? Not as a hatred but instead that maybe in some big plan of the universe we all were meant to be somewhere else. Maybe we had already belonged somewhere else and were forcefully brought to earth? Maybe that's the reason why we all suffer and feel out of place.
People often say "In another life I would be xxx" but I want to counter that with I wish there wouldn't be any possibility of another life. I do want to believe that there isn't another reincarnation after death and that simply we are set free from the shackles that earth put on us.
I do not think I'm making much sense right now as I'm writing this as I cannot fully express my thought. However anyone having similiar or different outlook on the purpose of existence is much appreciated to expand the post.

 

[Hope;ess Fear]

I understand what you mean. I've never felt right in this world. Maybe it's just because of the mental issues, but I as a kid I always wondered when I would go Home. Not to my house, even there I wondered. When would I go to my real Home?

My mom had a pregnancy before me that miscarried. Sometimes I wonder if that baby ended up in the world I was really supposed to be in. Or maybe she just went to oblivion, never having to know the pain of life.

I wish so much for that. No reincarnation, no "endless paradise". Just nothing. No thoughts, no feelings, I just want it all to stop.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, I was certainly never meant for something as torturous and deeply undesirable as existence and I just never should had suffered at all, to me existence truly is an abomination, I see existence as a mistake that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, all I'm meant for is the peace of eternal sleep.

 

[Devouring Entropy]

I understand what you mean. I've never felt right in this world. Maybe it's just because of the mental issues, but I as a kid I always wondered when I would go Home. Not to my house, even there I wondered. When would I go to my real Home?

My mom had a pregnancy before me that miscarried. Sometimes I wonder if that baby ended up in the world I was really supposed to be in. Or maybe she just went to oblivion, never having to know the pain of life.

I wish so much for that. No reincarnation, no "endless paradise". Just nothing. No thoughts, no feelings, I just want it all to stop.

I've thought a lot about that home you speak of. Born in a family of people saying they love me but only wanting to impose their own version of happiness and proper life unto me. Uncaring if that would be torture for me or maybe too naive and unable to believe I wouldn't adapt to it and come to like it. I'd say I've been very privileged all things considered but that's the problem, there's no home for me here. I've found it, in fictional worlds, in song and I am beyond thankful for that, but it seems I won't get to engross myself in it, ergo to the beyond it is. I don't get how people here view religion. I'm Christian and cannot comprehend my good and loving God having forced life unto us. My take on it is that we're either in no way judged for suicide or our soul is shown it's future life before being born and gets to decide if it wants it or not. The second would be the best, the first ain't all that bad, it's the brainwashing of all sides making you not even consider it that's wrong beyond comprehension.

 

[Galam]

Schopenhauer wrote about a blind will in this world or even universe. I think if we are not supposed to be here we simply won't. We are here because this blind accident allowed it until the day we actually are so defect that we die and we as a individual will vanish but maybe not we as the non-personal mass of the bigger will as long as this world is not burned to another star, like all the other planets.

I think I found 2 or 4 versions of my typus on this planet too. Just women with similarities in face, body but in normal pretty. I don't believe that women like me are a failure, just because we can't breed and just because we love equality and aren't good with competition. We are more like maybe Bonobos and not Chimpanzees.

I assume we are as natural as all the breeders and the blind will that manifests in us is just the antagonist/the antidote to all the cruel breeding. We have many breeders against us but not nature itself. It is like a galactic shoutout to battle the breeders dead. We are not stronger than them yet but we should create our own society on this planet. A antinatalistic lesbian society, this is what manifests in us, the blind will started to see and want's now to get rid of all the parasites.

We are as worthless as the breeders from a universal view but important if we see and remember the history of life. We could stop them if we find a way to castrate them all. They should be eaten by their own system alive.

 

[golddustwoman]

My mom had a pregnancy before me that miscarried. Sometimes I wonder if that baby ended up in the world I was really supposed to be in. Or maybe she just went to oblivion, never having to know the pain of life.

exact same situation here. my mom always made it really clear that she wished she had that baby more than me, and i don't blame her, i do too. she probably would've had a happier life than i do. i nickname her emma because that was what my name would've been if it wasn't what it is (not sharing that, obviously). i think she would've made my mama proud. not like me.