Venting Maybe I'm everything they said i was

[Falseunderworld]

No one would care if one day I disappeared , I barely exist as it is , Sometimes I start to believe I am everything everyone ever said about me, that im a horrible and a monster . i do everything wrong because im a source of bad luck , Ill get good things sometimes but I am not worthy of them. Im not talented or special, im just a ghost , i cant keep a job, i cant be emotionally stable I Just want to Fucking die, I want to ctb but i am afraid of disappointing my loved ones , and now my sister is afraid ill do it. I want to cut but my box cutter is gone and its just like my mind is screaming at me.

 

[theboy]

or maybe you're nothing like what they told you

 

[Falseunderworld]

or maybe you're nothing like what they told you

Im probably worse

 

[PanaxMan]

No one would care if one day I disappeared , I barely exist as it is , Sometimes I start to believe I am everything everyone ever said about me, that im a horrible and a monster . i do everything wrong because im a source of bad luck , Ill get good things sometimes but I am not worthy of them. Im not talented or special, im just a ghost , i cant keep a job, i cant be emotionally stable I Just want to Fucking die, I want to ctb but i am afraid of disappointing my loved ones , and now my sister is afraid ill do it. I want to cut but my box cutter is gone and its just like my mind is screaming at me.

One of the many reasons I'm CTBing (attempt, hope i do) right now

 

[astr4]

it's your choice if u want to stick around to see that "what if" bc what if you're better than they say? but only you can make that decision if the possibility is worth it for you.

 

[Falseunderworld]

I have never once

it's your choice if u want to stick around to see that "what if" bc what if you're better than they say? but only you can make that decision if the possibility is worth it for you.

The issue is , I really am not worth it, I'm 24 and Ive been through so much, my friend CTB without me . my sisters basically disowned me for being trans , my mother beats me, I have nothing worth living for. if i disappeared there wouldnt be anymore problems. Nothing is worth it .