KnightOfSwords
Member
- Oct 16, 2025
- 10
After a year of struggling with suicidal thoughts and depression I finally agreed to rest at a (supposedly) good psych ward. Only to find out I have to do everything myself. Make an appointment with local psychiatrist, gather a list of required documents and so on. Mom said I have to do it myself and manage it without her. Well, I recon, I didn't need hospitalisation if I could do it myself. It was already embarrassing enough to agree to spend time at a place like this and now I'm expected to make hella effort to get in.
Ok, I can do it, I'm not this helpless. But it's impossible. I searched their site and it's so confusing and contradictory to the point of despair. "What do I do to get in? Who knows... We won't tell you."
My friend agreed to help me with this but it was fruitless. She said it's like they don't want no one to make an appointment with them.
This situation infuriates me. Maybe I'm not that loved. Maybe I'm not that needed. Maybe I thought my mom loved me more than she actually does. Maybe she won't be that heartbroken if I'm gone.
I don't know, guys. I didn't expect this from her. She knows I'm independent and capable but it's clear we're near the life and death situation here, why doesn't she want to help me...
Ok, I can do it, I'm not this helpless. But it's impossible. I searched their site and it's so confusing and contradictory to the point of despair. "What do I do to get in? Who knows... We won't tell you."
My friend agreed to help me with this but it was fruitless. She said it's like they don't want no one to make an appointment with them.
This situation infuriates me. Maybe I'm not that loved. Maybe I'm not that needed. Maybe I thought my mom loved me more than she actually does. Maybe she won't be that heartbroken if I'm gone.
I don't know, guys. I didn't expect this from her. She knows I'm independent and capable but it's clear we're near the life and death situation here, why doesn't she want to help me...