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Why do I have to suffer unbearably! HELP PLEASE!
Dec 6, 2025
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There should be a way to get the medication compound used for MAiD. For any Darkweb users have you asked your seller if they have the combo used for MAiD or could get it. Seems like they would have the meds, they just crush them and put them in a small bottle that you add water to and shake it in. They probably have all of the 5 meds PPeH lists. I would be happy with either.I don't use it I bet they have med combinations that are lethal. Some get the MAiD cocktail and die without using it, I wish I knew someone who has it. Has anyone ever seen it for sale anywhere? Of could I would love to find N from someone in the US who isn't going to use it or has enough for more than 1 person
and doesn't want to be alone, I would say the same for nitrogen. My physical health is very bad I've suffered for years physically and mentally.I have no quality of life. I'm in excruciating unbearable torture 20 hours a day 4 hours trying to sleep with severe insomnia. I'm not able to do anything in this extreme pain. I would be so grateful if I could find N. I truly can't take this brutal pain. There must be a way. I really need to ctb asap.
 
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"dying is like taking off a tight shoe" - ram dass
May 10, 2026
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I'm sorry you have to go through this. Have you thought about applying for MAID? Sounds like you might get approved.

About the Cocktail, idk. You can just look it up on the dark web, it's really easy to get access. Just Download the onion browser and thats basically it. Buying stuff is way more complicated but when you figure it out it's actually pretty simpe too.
 
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There should be a way to get the medication compound used for MAiD. For any Darkweb users have you asked your seller if they have the combo used for MAiD or could get it. Seems like they would have the meds, they just crush them and put them in a small bottle that you add water to and shake it in. They probably have all of the 5 meds PPeH lists. I would be happy with either.I don't use it I bet they have med combinations that are lethal. Some get the MAiD cocktail and die without using it, I wish I knew someone who has it. Has anyone ever seen it for sale anywhere? Of could I would love to find N from someone in the US who isn't going to use it or has enough for more than 1 person
and doesn't want to be alone, I would say the same for nitrogen. My physical health is very bad I've suffered for years physically and mentally.I have no quality of life. I'm in excruciating unbearable torture 20 hours a day 4 hours trying to sleep with severe insomnia. I'm not able to do anything in this extreme pain. I would be so grateful if I could find N. I truly can't take this brutal pain. There must be a way. I really need to ctb asap.
I also think you might qualify, if you live in the right area. I'm so sorry you're suffering. And I too have severe insomnia - which is the reason I want to CTB. I can't imagine unbearable pain on top of it. I'd love go by way of nitrogen but don't think I have the mental capacity to figure out how to procure it and set it up. Anyway, do ask your doctor if you might qualify for MAID.
 
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Serena 2026

Student
Jan 15, 2026
171
Hi, a guy who is a member of this site invited me to CTB with him in Peru. He said he had the "N" to offer as a courtesy if I agreed to keep him company—he didn't want to die alone, and it didn't matter if it was a man or a woman; he just wanted to share the moment with someone, but it had to be there in Peru. I didn't accept because I already have the "N," and I want to stay in my own country and be alone when I pass away. It's been a while since he reached out to me; I don't know if he's already gone through with the CTB or if he's still a member here, but I can check for you if you're interested... from what he said, you just have to go there, and you get the "N" as a gift for providing company during the CTB. He sent me photos of the "N," but I want to make it clear that I don't know him—I only spoke to him twice. If you are interested, it's a good idea to do some research and make sure it's safe to accept the offer before you go... though he seemed like a good person to me.
 
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Dec 4, 2023
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Hi, a guy who is a member of this site invited me to CTB with him in Peru. He said he had the "N" to offer as a courtesy if I agreed to keep him company—he didn't want to die alone, and it didn't matter if it was a man or a woman; he just wanted to share the moment with someone, but it had to be there in Peru. I didn't accept because I already have the "N," and I want to stay in my own country and be alone when I pass away. It's been a while since he reached out to me; I don't know if he's already gone through with the CTB or if he's still a member here, but I can check for you if you're interested... from what he said, you just have to go there, and you get the "N" as a gift for providing company during the CTB. He sent me photos of the "N," but I want to make it clear that I don't know him—I only spoke to him twice. If you are interested, it's a good idea to do some research and make sure it's safe to accept the offer before you go... though he seemed like a good person to me.
Hi Serena! Could you share the contact with me please?
 
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Olá Serena! Você poderia compartilhar o contato comigo, por favor?

TatMend32

He reached out to me via private message in January; after I turned him down, we never spoke again... Today I checked the message and saw that he had deleted everything. I don't know if he's still a member or if he's already done the CTB! 🤷🏻‍♀️🙄
 
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An update on TatMend32... a friend here at Sasu reported that this member was a fraud and has been banned; I hope no one fell for his spiel before that! 🫤🤷🏻‍♀️
 

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Why do I have to suffer unbearably! HELP PLEASE!
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An update on TatMend32... a friend here at Sasu reported that this member was a fraud and has been banned; I hope no one fell for his spiel before that! 🫤🤷🏻‍♀️
Really, wow. What did he do?
 
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Humpty Dumpty had a great fall
Sep 10, 2023
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I also think you might qualify, if you live in the right area. I'm so sorry you're suffering. And I too have severe insomnia - which is the reason I want to CTB. I can't imagine unbearable pain on top of it. I'd love go by way of nitrogen but don't think I have the mental capacity to figure out how to procure it and set it up. Anyway, do ask your doctor if you might qualify for MAID.
Be very careful asking for MAID or anything like it if u aren't dying they could report u for being suicidal. Especially if u r in America. There are a few states that help only if u have 6 months to live if not they report you and flag you and sometimes throw u in the psych ward. They won't help u in America.
 
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Be very careful asking for MAID or anything like it if u aren't dying they could report u for being suicidal. Especially if u r in America. There are a few states that help only if u have 6 months to live if not they report you and flag you and sometimes throw u in the psych ward. They won't help u in America.
Oh dear. Thanks for this.
 

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