Low Dose SN Trial Run Experience

[KatalinaKrimson]

I'm sorry it didn't work out like you had planned. Reading your stuff actually made me more likely to try SN.

But the problem is... where do i get it? I know you said that your stash was old, which makes me think it's damn near impossible to get these days,

 

[miyabi]

How long did it take for you to lose consciousness? Glad there weren't any ill effects

Over an hour from looking at the log I wrote but I was consuming more over time when the symptoms didn't kick in. So, a lot quicker if using the standard protocol I guess.

I can't remember feeling like I lost consciousness, it's just a blank gap from the symptoms to being pulled out of the coma. I could see my lips and fingers discolouring but considering I was dying it didn't feel as scary as I expected. I never had a point where I realised that I was going to die, just went from "I need to lie down, can't stand" to black.

I'm sorry it didn't work out like you had planned. Reading your stuff actually made me more likely to try SN.

But the problem is... where do i get it? I know you said that your stash was old, which makes me think it's damn near impossible to get these days,

A few years ago when it went mainstream I looked up and the chemical supplier I bought mine from no longer sells it. I guess nowadays it's just risking getting it through one of these forum suppliers.

Was it tough to overcome SI, even just for a "small" dosage like this ?

No. The mindset I had was very set on it being a "test of purity" and "test of fate". I could try the strips, I could do the full protocol with meto etc but it's a large mental load to prepare all of that and drink that much.

The amount I used just tasted like mild salt water and because I started off slow and added more, it wasn't as anxiety inducing. I told myself I was going to keep going until I felt symptoms, and then I'd call it. I got to discolouration and thought I might be imagining it, and realised that i was probably on the verge. So then took one more. There was no big hyped up "jump off a bridge/stool" moment which I'd have trouble with. Just rolling the dice several times, in my head.

I never would have been able to take the full protocol before. Mentally a lot harder to take that much knowing you're condemning yourself to death, and also the taste would be horrible. I didn't feel nauseous or throw up at all, and I still had plausible deniability that I might survive so that primal SI part of my head wasn't freaking out going "you're dying". Hard to explain.

 

[KatalinaKrimson]

one of these forum suppliers

Please do tell.

 

[a-lien]

I don't necessarily advise doing what i did, at the end of the day the established protocol is the safest way and is what id do to guarantee death. Guess it just shows how potent the lethality is.

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[miyabi]

Please do tell.

I don't know about them since I sourced mine of my own accord years ago.

 

[CarbonBased]

Thank you so much for sharing this! This is very valuable intel. I hope to go by this method soon, so I really appreciate the info

 

[miyabi]

Thank you so much for sharing this! This is very valuable intel. I hope to go by this method soon, so I really appreciate the info

I'm glad it's helpful. I can't ever encourage anyone to catch their own bus, but I wanted to provide firsthand experience because I clocked SN as a method years ago because of this site. I was always worried about the actual experience and read over a lot of logs of people taking it.

It wasn't as bad as I feared. I do remember wanting a hug or to be held once it kicked in and I had trouble standing, and that's the last thing I remember. There wasn't a massive impending feeling of panic or fear, which im grateful for because im a very fearful and anxious person. There wasn't a point where I thought "shit, I regret this, it hurts". I've had the unfortunateness of being first on scene to suicides using traditional methods and even when they are successful without life changing injuries the patient has been conscious in agony before dying. So, im glad i was able to find what seems to be the least painful method of clocking out when im done with this life.

 

[isthisthingon]

I'm glad it's helpful. I can't ever encourage anyone to catch their own bus, but I wanted to provide firsthand experience because I clocked SN as a method years ago because of this site. I was always worried about the actual experience and read over a lot of logs of people taking it.

NVM youve already answered this.

 

[miyabi]

Do you remember making the call for help? Like it was a conscious decision before blacking out?

Yeah. I was careful not to mention anything suicide related to avoid fucking myself over. I hadn't specifically planned for that to be the day, so hadn't made any preparations or anything. It's a very abnormal way of thinking but I just wanted to leave it with fate. If I survived I knew at that point I could always re attempt in the future, and if I didn't make it then that would be fine too. So by calling them it took me out of the frame of mind of killing myself and just being a "victim of unfortunate illness", which meant I wasn't really panicking. I guess we rationalise things in strange ways.

I put in the call as soon as the symptoms confirmed it was real, but debated calling back to cancel. Didn't get a chance to because I then lost consciousness. I suppose it took the weight off my shoulders of me "sentencing myself to death" since I had "made an attempt" to get medical attention.

It wasn't really a cry for help since I was aware of the lethality, it's not a suitable method for that. I've also nothing to gain from losing my livelihood by seeking help. There's also a very slim chance of medics getting there on time to resuscitate, so the odds were very much against me even putting in that call. The mind just works in strange ways, especially mine. There was just reassurance in "rolling the dice" and letting the universe decide if I died or not.

 

[ladidabi]

Another "I tested SN" thread. Another grey hair. This is stupid. This a spreading dangerous ideas that SN is just super chill to try out.
Please consider not posting this stuff in the future. There is no point making people more afraid and also putting your life at risk when youre not intentional with it. I hate these threads with every fiber of my body.

You probably didn't even read the post, just the title.

 

[kji821]

You measured 0.5 grams and you spread it on more glasses or you placed 0.5 grams in each glass? If it's the second option then how many glasses did you drink?

 

[miyabi]

You measured 0.5 grams and you spread it on more glasses or you placed 0.5 grams in each glass? If it's the second option then how many glasses did you drink?

I go into detail on this thread: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/is-20-25g-necessary-for-sn.249164/#post-3523194

Tl;dr - x3 glasses with estimated 0.5g (within 50ml water) + x3 glasses with estimated 1g (also 50ml water).

 

[Macedonian1987]

Did you take any benzos in your trial run of your SN?

 

[miyabi]

Did you take any benzos in your trial run of your SN?

No. No ancillaries. Had meto in possession but didn't take it.

 

[Serena 2026]

writing this from the hospital ward. I ended up going for a "trial run" of SN, just measuring 0.5g or so into several cups and taking them over an hour. I did not bother to use my meto or any ancillaries.

Symptoms wise, there was pounding of the chest and ears and ringing. No nausea whatsoever. I had been fasted for maybe 7 hours. Towards the end there was weakness in the legs physically and at some point I peacefully passed out, as I was found by emergency services unconscious and grey in colour.

If anyone takes nicotine pouches or snus, I would liken it to that feeling (but slightly less euphoric, lol)

I did not know the point at which I slipped away, the next conscious moment I was aware is when they pulled me out of the induced coma.

Somehow it seems I managed to accidentally send a voice message to my work group chat of me whilst I was dying, not sure how I feel about them thinking I sent them audio of me snoring ;(

According to doctors I was about 10 minutes away from death. I honestly don't regret my decision as when I decided to give it a "test run" I was comfortable with that being it, but you do not need much SN. I wonder if the low dosage also meant that I didn't experience nausea or vomit.

I don't have any permanent damage from this - went for a CT scan whilst in the coma and doctors believe my brain functioning is fine from talking with me.

Truthfully it's offered me reassurance as now I know that my SN is real and if I do the full protocol I am guaranteed death, and considering that I was due to die my last moments at the time were something I wasn't even aware of, it was just like how you don't know you're falling asleep. According to the medics my blood was completely chocolate brown and skin pale like a corpse before they brought me back. The SN I had used was bought years ago and I had opened them a few years ago so it did have oxygen exposure - but still clearly potent enough to be lethal.

Also, importantly, my biggest fear was that they would know it was a suicide attempt. Contrary to some advice I received from other members, they are completely unaware. They questioned me about taking any drugs or if I could remember working in any hazardous environments, but there was never even a hint towards suicide or even a mention of SN.

As others have mentioned in the "do not trial ingest SN thread" absolutely do not take this as a suicidal gesture, as I came extremely close to death. But considering I was fine with catching my bus, im grateful that it wasn't as bad of an experience as I had hoped and ultimately i don't have any negative consequences from it.

Wow, you were really brave. How many grams did you take in total? Does it really taste awful? Thanks for sharing your experience!

 

[lpdsvm]

writing this from the hospital ward. I ended up going for a "trial run" of SN, just measuring 0.5g or so into several cups and taking them over an hour. I did not bother to use my meto or any ancillaries.

Symptoms wise, there was pounding of the chest and ears and ringing. No nausea whatsoever. I had been fasted for maybe 7 hours. Towards the end there was weakness in the legs physically and at some point I peacefully passed out, as I was found by emergency services unconscious and grey in colour.

If anyone takes nicotine pouches or snus, I would liken it to that feeling (but slightly less euphoric, lol)

I did not know the point at which I slipped away, the next conscious moment I was aware is when they pulled me out of the induced coma.

Somehow it seems I managed to accidentally send a voice message to my work group chat of me whilst I was dying, not sure how I feel about them thinking I sent them audio of me snoring ;(

According to doctors I was about 10 minutes away from death. I honestly don't regret my decision as when I decided to give it a "test run" I was comfortable with that being it, but you do not need much SN. I wonder if the low dosage also meant that I didn't experience nausea or vomit.

I don't have any permanent damage from this - went for a CT scan whilst in the coma and doctors believe my brain functioning is fine from talking with me.

Truthfully it's offered me reassurance as now I know that my SN is real and if I do the full protocol I am guaranteed death, and considering that I was due to die my last moments at the time were something I wasn't even aware of, it was just like how you don't know you're falling asleep. According to the medics my blood was completely chocolate brown and skin pale like a corpse before they brought me back. The SN I had used was bought years ago and I had opened them a few years ago so it did have oxygen exposure - but still clearly potent enough to be lethal.

Also, importantly, my biggest fear was that they would know it was a suicide attempt. Contrary to some advice I received from other members, they are completely unaware. They questioned me about taking any drugs or if I could remember working in any hazardous environments, but there was never even a hint towards suicide or even a mention of SN.

As others have mentioned in the "do not trial ingest SN thread" absolutely do not take this as a suicidal gesture, as I came extremely close to death. But considering I was fine with catching my bus, im grateful that it wasn't as bad of an experience as I had hoped and ultimately i don't have any negative consequences from it.

Very nice that you shared. So it means no need to jug a lot of it so I can avoid vomiting. Maybe a bit more. I will probably take about 5g then another 5g to CTB. I will have another cup or two with a 20g each just in case.
Great experience and it's good you are alive. It turns blood dark, it means it cannot carry oxygen. It doesn't do anything else. It's not some bleach or acid.
I won't test it like that because I won't call anyone for help. The body cannot fight this much on its own.