Lost regarding psychiatric treatment

[ZeldaNLink1999]

Hello,

Ive been on every kind of psychiatric medication there is the last 5 years. Now, I take Lithium and olanzapine for bipolar, personality disorder, and adhd.

Today, I took some leftovers (Vyvanse) and I feel good again. But, the Dr has removed that meds since earlier.

Am I the only one to become utterly sluggish, stupid, dumb, feel worthless, no will to recovery whatsoever, on psychiatric medication?

I had to quit my job this month because my energy levels and mood fluctuated all the time, and my colleagues thought I was stuck in my own world, and therefore I was hard to work with. I had low tempo.

Is it time to quit these fking medication and get a degree or a job? My other alternative now is medical retirement. I have been offered that. I can barely go to the grocery store and make a plan for what to buy.

The Lithium makes me like a total zombie.

Can anyone relate? I want a normal life. Today when I boosted my dopamine I actually got errands done. I suspect this Lithium and olanzapine ruins my dopamine and makes me into a lethargic penguin.

I was high functioning before. I have always suspected that I only have a personality disorder (Schizoid) and not bloody bipolar. No Drs listen to me. Im done with them.

I go to a good psychologist now. But, she has to listen to the doctors too. Is the problem the way i think and not my medication? I have no idea. Im used to feeling like a knocked doormat on meds though.

Apparently my thought parterna are very unhealthy. Im unsure where this stems from and if such thoughts can cause these symptoms? Well, it might be due to my personality disorder.

Im lost. Anyone have any input? Thanks.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Medication has those effects on lots of people.

If you were diagnosed as bipolar, that means they interpreted some of your behavior as being evidence of mania. Does that make any sense to you, in the context of how you know yourself?

It sounds like quitting medication might be worth trying for you, just based on what you said.

Just come off it responsibly and carefully.

 

[ZeldaNLink1999]

Well, last time I was "manic" I was abusing amphetamines (Vyvanse). Its like Ritalin. Who doesnt get "manic" on amphetamines? I'm done with psychiatry.

Its either medical disability for life or I try to go for a degree in autumn, medication free. These medications makes me so goddam lethargic and stupid.

I think I have emotional instability, like borderline. Had that diagnosis before. Now, in therapy, she thinks Im Schizoid. Emotional instability cannot be treated with meds.

I will try to cut them down. Living on medical disability, it's like, what am I going to do? Play video games and watch pornography 7 days a week? Pretty tiresome.

 

[Sulyya]

Sounds like you have drive to work still, and get the degree. With medical disability, you could have a productive hobby still maybe but that's a lot of time if you have the itch to keep advancing in career or something.

 

[foreversad16]

Hello,

Ive been on every kind of psychiatric medication there is the last 5 years. Now, I take Lithium and olanzapine for bipolar, personality disorder, and adhd.

Today, I took some leftovers (Vyvanse) and I feel good again. But, the Dr has removed that meds since earlier.

Am I the only one to become utterly sluggish, stupid, dumb, feel worthless, no will to recovery whatsoever, on psychiatric medication?

I had to quit my job this month because my energy levels and mood fluctuated all the time, and my colleagues thought I was stuck in my own world, and therefore I was hard to work with. I had low tempo.

Is it time to quit these fking medication and get a degree or a job? My other alternative now is medical retirement. I have been offered that. I can barely go to the grocery store and make a plan for what to buy.

The Lithium makes me like a total zombie.

Can anyone relate? I want a normal life. Today when I boosted my dopamine I actually got errands done. I suspect this Lithium and olanzapine ruins my dopamine and makes me into a lethargic penguin.

I was high functioning before. I have always suspected that I only have a personality disorder (Schizoid) and not bloody bipolar. No Drs listen to me. Im done with them.

I go to a good psychologist now. But, she has to listen to the doctors too. Is the problem the way i think and not my medication? I have no idea. Im used to feeling like a knocked doormat on meds though.

Apparently my thought parterna are very unhealthy. Im unsure where this stems from and if such thoughts can cause these symptoms? Well, it might be due to my personality disorder.

Im lost. Anyone have any input? Thanks.

Good to hear that you have a psychologist who is helping, as you will know medication is only part of the picture in staying well with bipolar disorder and therapy is an important adjunct. Could you suggest reducing your olanzapine to see if that helps with the lethargy?

There is so much crossover with mood/personality disorders and being labelled as one or another or with several is not always helpful. It's also very hard to identify what is bad mood, bad behaviour and bad attitude in all of us, it's a lot to unpick. Maybe take some time out from work if you're being offered medical retirement and concentrate on therapy, adjusting medications, good exercise and a keeping well plan. Making radical decisions like quitting all your medications won't help and might make things worse for you. Also trying to work whilst dealing with all these issues is too much, much respect is due to you for even trying.