Hello all.
In recent years i have experienced so many different aspects of life.
It just got to a point where i am done with this. I simply dont care anymore, my brain is not functioning anymore as it used to. Every complex thought is impossible.
From lows to highs, then absolute lows to absolute highs.
From getting my dream job, from living the absolute high-society life, having friends and girls and money and whatever is supposed to be making you happy to being scammed all my money, cheating girlfriends, abusive parents and society.
From reading history, from studying people, from the philosophy of Shopenhauer.
Simply i realised that this is a wheel that is never going to stop and it is nothing but extreme torture and pain that i am feeling in every aspect of the good and bad periods of my life.
My parents were forced to marry. My father is as crazy as it gets trying to suppress the light that is developing in his child and my mother is trying to take revenge on her family that made her marry my father and decided to let it all out on her child because the child is the only one weak enough for her.
Living this childhood and realising that everything in this world is a lie i just want to end it in a peaceful manner.
Nembutal is just a dream i guess...
In recent years i have experienced so many different aspects of life.
It just got to a point where i am done with this. I simply dont care anymore, my brain is not functioning anymore as it used to. Every complex thought is impossible.
From lows to highs, then absolute lows to absolute highs.
From getting my dream job, from living the absolute high-society life, having friends and girls and money and whatever is supposed to be making you happy to being scammed all my money, cheating girlfriends, abusive parents and society.
From reading history, from studying people, from the philosophy of Shopenhauer.
Simply i realised that this is a wheel that is never going to stop and it is nothing but extreme torture and pain that i am feeling in every aspect of the good and bad periods of my life.
My parents were forced to marry. My father is as crazy as it gets trying to suppress the light that is developing in his child and my mother is trying to take revenge on her family that made her marry my father and decided to let it all out on her child because the child is the only one weak enough for her.
Living this childhood and realising that everything in this world is a lie i just want to end it in a peaceful manner.
Nembutal is just a dream i guess...
