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- May 5, 2022
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I apologize for the misleading title as this is an update to a previous post but I didn't want to say update for some reason.
So, I went to the work meeting expecting to be terminated as I've seen this same situation happen over a dozen times with other people in the exact same way. I was basically in a black hole of depression throughout the weekend because I assumed it was a done deal.
It's gratifying to report that I was not let go. It appears that despite my mistake, I have cultivated a solid hard working and respectable reputation that has saved me this time and that I should take the ordeal as a learning experience. Fair enough.
Keep in mind that this isn't some top tier fancy job or anything. In fact, it's a very minimal low level job that just helps me barely survive on my own. That being said, I appreciate the support I was shown in that moment because they have no idea what my mental state was during that time. It would have been too much of a hassle to start over somewhere else and thrown all the time I've put in there way.
So, a small victory in my otherwise risky and fragile existence.
I dont appreciate what I have sometimes and how things could always be worse. That's both a comforting and scary realization. So I return to work and continue to live on.
Thanks to everyone who showed me support here too!
It means a lot to be able to come here and be heard.
I feel my mental state balancing out and that's good.
But as we all know... life is a struggle. We carry on.
So, I went to the work meeting expecting to be terminated as I've seen this same situation happen over a dozen times with other people in the exact same way. I was basically in a black hole of depression throughout the weekend because I assumed it was a done deal.
It's gratifying to report that I was not let go. It appears that despite my mistake, I have cultivated a solid hard working and respectable reputation that has saved me this time and that I should take the ordeal as a learning experience. Fair enough.
Keep in mind that this isn't some top tier fancy job or anything. In fact, it's a very minimal low level job that just helps me barely survive on my own. That being said, I appreciate the support I was shown in that moment because they have no idea what my mental state was during that time. It would have been too much of a hassle to start over somewhere else and thrown all the time I've put in there way.
So, a small victory in my otherwise risky and fragile existence.
I dont appreciate what I have sometimes and how things could always be worse. That's both a comforting and scary realization. So I return to work and continue to live on.
Thanks to everyone who showed me support here too!
It means a lot to be able to come here and be heard.
I feel my mental state balancing out and that's good.
But as we all know... life is a struggle. We carry on.
