Lost all that I had in a fire

[soul80]

My house burned down due my neglected neighbor and I lost all that I had, even my pets. Ironically I had Nembutal ready and my hand gun but couldn't take out with me that day. I only could take with me my dog and my personal computer, where I'm writing this now.. I'm so tired physical, mental, emotionally.. I didn't have renter's insurance and dealing with my neighbor's insurance is a hassle, the corruption of the local authorities in my city is not helping me also.. I am thinking in hanging myself, but don't want to fail, also I am staying on the house of some older people in my town, don't want to cause a mess in their house, they have been so nice to me..I taught in jump in front of a car, but the driver could has a serious trauma. What painless method could I use? I also though go to counseling and mention that I can't sleep and probably they would prescribe me some pills for sleep and overdose on those, but I heard there is big risk of failing..
I lost all my personal ID, passport and can't order Nembutal trough Western Union again until can get my Id again.
I am so lost.. I wish I would not awake tomorrow.
I apologize, English is not my mother language and can't think clearly..I can't stop crying
What are my painless options?

 

[El Topo]

My house burned down due my neglected neighbor and I lost all that I had, even my pets. Ironically I had Nembutal ready and my hand gun but couldn't take out with me that day. I only could take with me my dog and my personal computer, where I'm writing this now.. I'm so tired physical, mental, emotionally.. I didn't have renter's insurance and dealing with my neighbor's insurance is a hassle, the corruption of the local authorities in my city is not helping me also.. I am thinking in hanging myself, but don't want to fail, also I am staying on the house of some older people in my town, don't want to cause a mess in their house, they have been so nice to me..I taught in jump in front of a car, but the driver could has a serious trauma. What painless method could I use? I also though go to counseling and mention that I can't sleep and probably they would prescribe me some pills for sleep and overdose on those, but I heard there is big risk of failing..
I lost all my personal ID, passport and can't order Nembutal trough Western Union again until can get my Id again.
I am so lost.. I wish I would not awake tomorrow.
I apologize, English is not my mother language and can't think clearly..I can't stop crying
What are my painless options?

Oh my god, is this real? You already had pentobarbital and you lost it in a housefire? Along with everything else?

I'm speechless...

For now, forget about trying to overdose on sleep pills. It won't work.

 

[anna]

Es terrible ...
lo siento mucho

 

[Lion]

im so sorry you had to suffer through this, let this be a warning to everyone to invest in a fireproof safe

 

[Sonnenblume]

How horrible :( sorry you are suffering this way. Anything we can do to help?

 

[soul80]

Oh my god, is this real? You already had pentobarbital and you lost it in a housefire? Along with everything else?

I'm speechless...

For now, forget about trying to overdose on sleep pills. It won't work.

Very real for sure, a nightmare... I got my pento last december from A and saved it to use in couple months more...now nada...

 

[soul80]

How horrible :( sorry you are suffering this way. Anything we can do to help?

Thanks SonnenBlue for asking... there is nothing to do, but thanks.

 

[soul80]

Es terrible ...
lo siento mucho

Gracias Anna...

 

[El Topo]

Soul80, do you have a job? If so, you will be able to eventually save up money again for N, a gun, whatever method you choose.

If you really want to end things soon and don't want to wait for more N, a cheaper, more accessible option is chloroquine, a common medicine. If you take with a large amount of sleeping pills (preferably benzos), it is a peaceful death.

Read the chapters on chloroquine in Guide to a Humane Self-Chosen Death and Dignified Dying:
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/list-of-resources.3/

I'm personally thinking about combining chloroquine with N.

 

[Lion]

Soul80, do you have a job? If so, you will be able to eventually save up money again for N, a gun, whatever method you choose.

If you really want to end things soon and don't want to wait for more N, a cheaper, more accessible option is chloroquine, a common medicine. If you take with a large amount of sleeping pills (preferably benzos), it is a peaceful death.

Read the chapters on chloroquine in Guide to a Humane Self-Chosen Death and Dignified Dying:
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/list-of-resources.3/

I'm personally thinking about combining chloroquine with N.

what does combining those things do? i thought N was good enough

 

[Malice1]

what does combining those things do? i thought N was good enough

It is but some people like to mix it with benzos or other CNS depressants just to be sure i guess. I'm drinking mines straight without anything else but the antiemetics to prevent vommitting.

 

[anna]

Es terrible ...
lo siento mucho

It's terrible, I'm so sorry

(Sorry for the confusion with the language)

 

[El Topo]

what does combining those things do? i thought N was good enough

N is certainly effective on its own, and most people die within a few hours. But I want to be 100% sure, plus I take benzos, which means I have a slight tolerance to barbiturates, which is why I'm thinking about combining N with something else. Either chloroquine or a large dose of opiates.

 

[dccxy]

Oh wow, so sorry to hear