Anneko1014
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- Apr 24, 2024
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Two weeks ago, I lost my boyfriend, who truly was the light of my life. He took his own life. Since then, I've only wished for death; I feel like I'm dead already. I've even meticulously planned how, where, and when I'll do it. Life without him is just a sea of tears. I feel like even death won't ease my pain because what I truly want is for him to be alive, which is impossible. All that's left for me is the final option of ending my own life and checking if I can find him there. Even though I've always believed that there's nothing after death, it doesn't give me peace, and I feel compelled to find out. I feel like I can't wait until old age; I don't want to keep feeling this pain all the time. Does anyone have a similar experience to mine and would like to share?
Two weeks ago, I lost my boyfriend, who truly was the light of my life. He took his own life. Since then, I've only wished for death; I feel like I'm dead already. I've even meticulously planned how, where, and when I'll do it. Life without him is just a sea of tears. I feel like even death won't ease my pain because what I truly want is for him to be alive, which is impossible. All that's left for me is the final option of ending my own life and checking if I can find him there. Even though I've always believed that there's nothing after death, it doesn't give me peace, and I feel compelled to find out. I feel like I can't wait until old age; I don't want to keep feeling this pain all the time. Does anyone have a similar experience to mine and would like to share?
