Venting Losing My Mind

[EndItPlsGirl]

I want to be done with life. I don't care for living anymore. Regardless of how much I want to die I'm coming to the realization that no matter what method I choose, I don't have what it takes to commit suicide. No matter how painless or quick, I can't go through with it.

I don't want to believe I can't commit suicide. Everytime I've tried I always back out of it. Every second of the day I obsess about killing myself. Life is too overwhelming for me. Trash is piling up in my apartment. My clothes are getting dirtier and nastier every day. Is it delusional for me to pursue suicide if I can't actually do it?

I just want to be in the fetal position and cry now. I fear I've lost my mind and will never recover it. I fear I've lost the ability to be functional. I fear I will never beable to end this pile of crap known as my life.

If you're able to I wish I was you. I wish I was never born. I wish I had it in me to end my life.

 

[Dingusguy]

I am sorry to hear what you're going through, as someone who also can't find the courage to do it I feel you. I hope life gets better for you.

If you can't find the courage or whatever it is you need to go through with it then take small steps to make life more liveable that's what I tend to do, I clean my apartment (or some of it) whenever it get's too dirty, I try to wash some clothes and sometimes I cook myself something nice.

It isn't much, I have no idea if my words will help at all, I just hope they do and that I didn't accidentally bother you

 

[Lov3]

I know how it feels to be like that, I can feel you in every word, that feeling that nothing will work out and feeling suffocated by life.

I wish I could hug you.

 

[EndItPlsGirl]

I am sorry to hear what you're going through, as someone who also can't find the courage to do it I feel you. I hope life gets better for you.

If you can't find the courage or whatever it is you need to go through with it then take small steps to make life more liveable that's what I tend to do, I clean my apartment (or some of it) whenever it get's too dirty, I try to wash some clothes and sometimes I cook myself something nice.

It isn't much, I have no idea if my words will help at all, I just hope they do and that I didn't accidentally bother you

It's nice to know I'm not the only one.

I know how it feels to be like that, I can feel you in every word, that feeling that nothing will work out and feeling suffocated by life.

I wish I could hug you.

Virtual Hugs.