Venting Losing my mind

[restingplace]

i kind of hate that nothing is set in life.
I want answers, solid routine yet I also find that all so incredibly boring. I feel so stressed and dazed almost, every single day.

I can't think straight, whenever I try to get my thoughts down none of it makes sense and it's all over the place which isn't usual for me. I'm so methodical in how i cope and try to manage my emotions but I just haven't been able to lately.

Nothing really feels of importance anymore? But I still make plans and keep working towards whatever I have a shot at. It kind of makes me feel invalid because so many people on here have just completely given up and don't even need to worry about that anymore. I feel like im getting dumber by the day.


Not a day goes by where I don't think of experiencing true peace, nothingness.


I fear being alive.

This is the most out of line and all over the place my thoughts have ever been, I need to get them out. I don't care if no one sees this i just need my thoughts out.

 

[spellbound]

This is one of the rare posts I truly relate too, I feel it describes exactly what I'm going through as well. With the exception that I'm one of those people who've "given up", I legit can't get anything done, which means I rot in my room all day, which certainly doesn't help my mental state.
I feel deeply for the methodical yet nonsensical thoughts I have on how I feel.
It brings me comfort, and admittedly a good deal of sadness, to know someone else can relate to what I live. I hope you find in my post the same comfort I've found in yours.
Much love

 

[restingplace]

It does comfort me to see that there is people that relate. Atleast I know my post can help others feel seen as sad as it is