Kadaver
Maybe death is like falling asleep
- Aug 11, 2023
- 182
I made a GoFundMe to help me transition but I doubt I'm going to get anywhere near what I need. I've posted it on personal accounts and its only been like three days but only one person has donated and I just feel like there's no point. I feel more hopeless after start it. I've planned to kill myself on my birthday which is in 85 days. I should just order SN and do it. I'm stuck and there's no escape
There was a trans girl who I thought was going to pay for my top surgery (she offered) but its been a year and there's been no talk about moving forward. When I mentioned the GoFundMe and how I was feeling lonely she said she could only help with my loneliness and it felt like something inside me just…faded. She was my last hope of transitioning. I told her about how bad my dysphoria is and she just didn't understand. I feel like no one understands and it'll just be easier for everyone if I just die. Then no one has to worry about helping me and I can escape myself. Everyone wins
There was a trans girl who I thought was going to pay for my top surgery (she offered) but its been a year and there's been no talk about moving forward. When I mentioned the GoFundMe and how I was feeling lonely she said she could only help with my loneliness and it felt like something inside me just…faded. She was my last hope of transitioning. I told her about how bad my dysphoria is and she just didn't understand. I feel like no one understands and it'll just be easier for everyone if I just die. Then no one has to worry about helping me and I can escape myself. Everyone wins
