Loserdom never quits punishing you

[LetMeOut67]

In recent times I can't enjoy anything.
I can't always enjoy music cos I'm thinking about how much better their lives are than mine.
I can't read books about famous people cos I compare their lives with mine and just feel like nothing. Two basic pleasures and life even takes those from me.
Of course with the Internet it's hard not to compare yourself with vast numbers of other people. The mental damage this is causing must be absolutely immense.
I realise that even the wealthiest people might have problems, peer pressure issues and secret misery - and "ordinary" people certainly do, but I think in this world more and more if you're not successful you really are seen as birdshit by society and even yourself.
I believe that this planet is so evil and unfair that it shouldn't exist. Especially as the worst people seem to be favoured by luck.

We all need to use the Internet much less of course . But what else is a friendless loser like me gonna do ??

 

[certified_idiot]

Yeah, this is one of the reasons I'm glad that I'm completely unaware of celebrity culture. I can't compare my lives to rich people if I don't know any rich people. The only people I compare myself to are people on AO3 who get more kudos than me lol

As someone who's been a "friendless loser" for most of my life (late-diagnosed autism), I've developed a few ways to cope without the internet. First, and easiest, is to read a book. Libraries are an important public resource. Next, you can watch people's conversations and imagine that they're including you. Yes, it's kinda creepy, but as long as they never know, you can pretend you're getting social interaction that way. Last, and probably hardest for people who start later, is to create imaginary friends. It's seen as a childish thing, as most people grow out of it when they make friends, but I continue to do it to this day.

I'm used to being partially to completely dissociated from myself/reality, so some of these things might be harder for most people to subsist on than me, but they've worked as a friend substitute for me for years, so they may work for you.

 

[fadedghost]

In recent times I can't enjoy anything.
I can't always enjoy music cos I'm thinking about how much better their lives are than mine.
I can't read books about famous people cos I compare their lives with mine and just feel like nothing. Two basic pleasures and life even takes those from me.
Of course with the Internet it's hard not to compare yourself with vast numbers of other people. The mental damage this is causing must be absolutely immense.
I realise that even the wealthiest people might have problems, peer pressure issues and secret misery - and "ordinary" people certainly do, but I think in this world more and more if you're not successful you really are seen as birdshit by society and even yourself.
I believe that this planet is so evil and unfair that it shouldn't exist. Especially as the worst people seem to be favoured by luck.

We all need to use the Internet much less of course . But what else is a friendless loser like me gonna do ??

i relate to this in some ways. good songs being wrecked, movies unwatchable... part of my isolation is self-imposed, or maybe that's just a lie i tell myself. i don't know... but existence certainly seems to be primarily evil and suffering sometimes...