Looking to exit - advice request

[violaash000]

Hello.
I have been here for a while just reading. This year has been strange, and it keep getting worse. I have been through worse years but I'm losing the will to endure it and can't see why i need to. I live alone in a rented apartment, I don't have family around. I was thinking of renting a nice hotel room and need advice on whether it's a good idea to perhaps slit my throat? Any advice on how to do it, which part of my neck it should be to catch a carotid(?) and what to use, will be helpful. I don't know where from to access SN or medications like carfentanyl or fentanyl or even morphine. It seems that SN would need a DIY apparatus. As an aspergers person i doubt how efficiently i could pull that off in my anxiety on the day of.

A decade and half ago i tried the hanging method; was in coma for two weeks afterwards and had hell for the next two years with complete loss of freedom in house arrest. I was 15 at the time.

Any advice is appreciated. Truly. I cannot afford to miss the bus this time.

 

[legozone]

I don't know where you're getting your SN information from, but it can be as simple as putting some powder into a glass of water and drinking it. Depending on where you live, it can be purchasable from an online store.

 

[violaash000]

Would it be the dark web?
I have read about instances of nausea, and worry what if anti emetics wouldn't work.
Throat slit seems an irreversible foolproof way to leave (the fool being me in this case)

 

[27clubBRIAN]

Please don't slit you're throat , I met a guy in a mental hospital that did that and he went hardcore with it , he's neck was wrecked and said it was agonizingly painful
How did you fail the hanging ? I prolly wanna go with a full suspension but I don't wanna fail , any tips ?

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Would it be the dark web?

I've heard it can be purchased there. But, it doesn't have to be.

 

[Lone Wanderer]

Yikes… don't slit your throat. That's painful as hell. Definitely recommend looking for a more peaceful way to go.

 

[veryhappyhuman]

It'd be useful context if you can share which country you're in. But yeah definitely don't slice your neck, not only is it painful and messy af, if you miss and cut a nerve you'd have lifelong complications. Neck is a very delicate area and there's lots of circuitry in there. I wish you the best.

 

[jk9761]

Hello.
I have been here for a while just reading. This year has been strange, and it keep getting worse. I have been through worse years but I'm losing the will to endure it and can't see why i need to. I live alone in a rented apartment, I don't have family around. I was thinking of renting a nice hotel room and need advice on whether it's a good idea to perhaps slit my throat? Any advice on how to do it, which part of my neck it should be to catch a carotid(?) and what to use, will be helpful. I don't know where from to access SN or medications like carfentanyl or fentanyl or even morphine. It seems that SN would need a DIY apparatus. As an aspergers person i doubt how efficiently i could pull that off in my anxiety on the day of.

A decade and half ago i tried the hanging method; was in coma for two weeks afterwards and had hell for the next two years with complete loss of freedom in house arrest. I was 15 at the time.

Any advice is appreciated. Truly. I cannot afford to miss the bus this time.

there are less painful ways , do some more digging on this site .

 

[violaash000]

Thank you for sharing your thoughts, everyone. I'll keep looking for a better way to ctb. Also, turns out my initial knowledge of how SN works was incorrect. I know better now.
I had failed the hanging because i was found too soon.