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Ob La Dee
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- Aug 4, 2021
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I'm a new member. I stumbled upon this group while researching suicide methods, something I have been doing for quite some time. Last December I impulsively tried to take my life. I tried to hang myself with a nylon cellphone cord over a door and when I blacked out the cord snapped and I woke up on the floor. I obviously didn't think it through.
I was recently considering ethylene glycol, the main ingredient in antifreeze. If you Google ethylene glycol poisoning, you will learn the following: "Early symptoms include intoxication, vomiting and abdominal pain. Later symptoms may include a decreased level of consciousness, headache, and seizures. Long term outcomes may include kidney failure and brain damage."
My concern with this method was the amount of time/pain involved, along with the fact that if it is unsuccessful (and it probably would be) I would be left with serious kidney/brain damage.
I was recently considering pong pong seeds (posted about this in another thread) but several members talked me out of this, as it is a slow, agonizing death. Thank you fellow SS members, you are absolutely right.
While searching the forums here I found sodium nitrite. I recalled reading about SN in the Peaceful Pill Handbook, and I decided to explore this possibility. After a GREAT deal of reading, I have decided to go with this method and have ordered my supplies.
I was originally planning to do it in my car, because I live in a boarding house and have a roommate who is always home, but a couple of members talked me out of it and suggested a cheap motel instead. Either way, I will feel dreadfully alone. Which brings me to my next point.
I would like to document my death from this method. In reading through hundreds of posts on this topic I have learned that there is a serious lack of documented cases, and I would like to contribute because it would be helpful to so many others who are considering this method.
So I would like to get to know someone who would be willing to observe me on this journey, through Zoom or Google Meets or whatever. Ideally, someone who is familiar with this method, maybe even considering it. If you are such a person, or know someone who is, please contact me. Not only will we be achieving something which will be useful to so many others, but I will feel less alone when I decide to go through with it.
I originally planned on doing it next Friday, August 13th, but I have decided to put it off for some time because I need to tie up a few loose ends and I want to give myself time to meet some potential observers.
I can assure you that I have given this a great deal of thought. I want to document my demise because, as far as I can see, there is only one documented case on this entire site. So if you or someone you know would like to take this journey with me, please reach out to me on this thread and we can talk and get to know one another.
Peace.
I was recently considering ethylene glycol, the main ingredient in antifreeze. If you Google ethylene glycol poisoning, you will learn the following: "Early symptoms include intoxication, vomiting and abdominal pain. Later symptoms may include a decreased level of consciousness, headache, and seizures. Long term outcomes may include kidney failure and brain damage."
My concern with this method was the amount of time/pain involved, along with the fact that if it is unsuccessful (and it probably would be) I would be left with serious kidney/brain damage.
I was recently considering pong pong seeds (posted about this in another thread) but several members talked me out of this, as it is a slow, agonizing death. Thank you fellow SS members, you are absolutely right.
While searching the forums here I found sodium nitrite. I recalled reading about SN in the Peaceful Pill Handbook, and I decided to explore this possibility. After a GREAT deal of reading, I have decided to go with this method and have ordered my supplies.
I was originally planning to do it in my car, because I live in a boarding house and have a roommate who is always home, but a couple of members talked me out of it and suggested a cheap motel instead. Either way, I will feel dreadfully alone. Which brings me to my next point.
I would like to document my death from this method. In reading through hundreds of posts on this topic I have learned that there is a serious lack of documented cases, and I would like to contribute because it would be helpful to so many others who are considering this method.
So I would like to get to know someone who would be willing to observe me on this journey, through Zoom or Google Meets or whatever. Ideally, someone who is familiar with this method, maybe even considering it. If you are such a person, or know someone who is, please contact me. Not only will we be achieving something which will be useful to so many others, but I will feel less alone when I decide to go through with it.
I originally planned on doing it next Friday, August 13th, but I have decided to put it off for some time because I need to tie up a few loose ends and I want to give myself time to meet some potential observers.
I can assure you that I have given this a great deal of thought. I want to document my demise because, as far as I can see, there is only one documented case on this entire site. So if you or someone you know would like to take this journey with me, please reach out to me on this thread and we can talk and get to know one another.
Peace.