Lonely doesn't even cover it...

[Already Gone now]

I've been at the bottom of a well in my mind for a long time and everything I feel and do with my life feels extremely futile. I don't have any friends or family and I don't know what to live for anymore. I'm not physically attractive and I don't ever see love happening in my life and I'm tired of life and the disappointment I bring to world. I just want to figure out the correct path to end myself. Anyone have any words of advice on how I can make this easy on myself? I'm tired of being the disappointing piece of shit that I am and I want it all to just stop.

 

[OldDrummer]

Apologies if this advise seems a little trite, but have you ever considered volunteer work at a charity?

 

[Already Gone now]

No, I haven't. Mainly cause I don't see myself as having anything worthwhile to contribute to the world. I just hate myself and I don't see how to fit into society. I feel that all of the things I found good or fun in life are probably wrong and that I'm just taking up space that would be better used on somebody else.

 

[- V -]

Hello.
I don't know how to help, but all I can say is, read the forum. I wouldn't want bad advice.
If you have any doubts about the situation, the recovery topics are not bad, it helps me to question myself and see things differently on certain days.

 

[Already Gone now]

I've been in this spot mentally for so long, I don't know how to reach out for help. Every time I have been hospitalized, they just slap me with some bullshit medication and send me along my way. Truthfully, I've just been wanting to find a quick way out and work up the last bit of courage to do the deal. But as of now, I'm just trapped between everything

 

[Teddybear]

Not sure how old you are but life can be full or surprises. Depression refuses to let you see the light at the end of that tunnel but there is no rush and as long as you got the rent covered you can just take the darkness on one day at a time. You can try counseling but I can't advise you on its effectiveness.

Yet one thing I can tell you: Finding love has next to nothing to do with "beauty", because the later only makes you sexually attractive for a night or two. The same goes for "worthwhile to contribute". I personally know many people who never contributed anything but their body odors to society and they lived happily together to old age.

Me personally I've waited to come here until my body told me its time to surrender and just dragged my soul along all those years. And guess what - I don't regret having held out that long for one bit.

 

[FuneralCry]

I guess that with suicide methods all that anyone can really do is, do their own research into methods to decide what is best for themselves. Sadly there are no easy answers to this as the fact is that the world that we exist in certainly makes suicide so unnecessarily difficult, at least it's not straightforward to me.

But it really does sound like you have suffered a lot and your wish to leave is understandable. Existing really can be so cruel and painful and I get that it's hard to carry on enduring this existence when you feel so incredibly tired. I hope that you find what you wish for.

 

[OldDrummer]

No, I haven't. Mainly cause I don't see myself as having anything worthwhile to contribute to the world. I just hate myself and I don't see how to fit into society. I feel that all of the things I found good or fun in life are probably wrong and that I'm just taking up space that would be better used on somebody else.

Only takes one ear to listen and one arm to ladle soup.

Why do you think that 'all the things I found good or fun in life are probably wrong'?

 

[Already Gone now]

I used to be drunk and high all the time and I feel that some, if not all things I used to like and think was fun is probably flawed and that I enjoyed things that aren't good for me