Loneliness is going to be the death of me

[3shells]

I've never had any friends, absolutely none. I don't know why but i have always found most people to be boring and shallow, like there's nothing behind their eyes. No interesting thoughts or opinions, no experiences to connect with and a sense of humor i would have found funny maybe 10 years ago. I've started to feel that i'm never going to make any friends and with life such a fucking bother for me i've figured i got no better alternative than to blow my head off someday. There is a zero% that i'd have the patience or the willpower or fucking-whatever to live a life completely alone.

It's frustrating, i always hear about people saying "well, have you tried to know people on a deeper level?" Of course i have, but everyone i try to know better just ends up being the most boring and shallow type of person on the planets surface that i've met so far. I just don't get it. It's probably because years of unristricted internet use have melted my brain to the point where the only people i relate or a similar neets who've also struggled with connecting to other but i have no clue where could i even begin to find those types of people, expecially when i live in a country the langauge of which is spoken by less people than some metropolitan areas have people lmao

 

[timf]

Sometimes libraries sponsor book discussion groups. Sometimes museums sponsor talks about a particular exhibit. Even art galleries might be a way to connect with some. It is sort of like swimming upstream as our society is becoming more insular. Some colleges offer night classes about different subjects that might offer a chance to meet others seeking some depth.

 

[moriix]

I've never had any friends, absolutely none. I don't know why but i have always found most people to be boring and shallow, like there's nothing behind their eyes. No interesting thoughts or opinions, no experiences to connect with and a sense of humor i would have found funny maybe 10 years ago. I've started to feel that i'm never going to make any friends and with life such a fucking bother for me i've figured i got no better alternative than to blow my head off someday. There is a zero% that i'd have the patience or the willpower or fucking-whatever to live a life completely alone.

It's frustrating, i always hear about people saying "well, have you tried to know people on a deeper level?" Of course i have, but everyone i try to know better just ends up being the most boring and shallow type of person on the planets surface that i've met so far. I just don't get it. It's probably because years of unristricted internet use have melted my brain to the point where the only people i relate or a similar neets who've also struggled with connecting to other but i have no clue where could i even begin to find those types of people, expecially when i live in a country the langauge of which is spoken by less people than some metropolitan areas have people lmao

i have felt that way often too. i think I crave a level of intellectual stimulation and emotional connection that other people have not been able to provide, at least not yet. the worst part is that people like us tend to stay inside and not seek out connections precisely because of our sensitive nature :^) so we can't find each other.

you have to think of where people like you would usually hang out (except for their rooms). for example if you are quite nerdy you may seek out DnD campaigns with others or forums centered around your interests. for irl friends, your area may indeed be the problem--but if there are any "nerdy" events held in your area, id urge you to check them out. you will generally not find "deep" people in a bar or in other normie spaces. but they do exist, and if you seek them out, you may find someone worth your time :) sometimes even finding some decent online friends could be helpful for you mentally, and those are much easier to find as you are not restricted geographically. some of the best most impactful friendships I've had started online.

really a lot of it is just pushing through the first more shallow and uncomfortable phases of a relationship. nobody will show their deep side to you if you have not established sufficient trust first, and that requires effort from both sides. i hope you will be able to find your people