Loneliness hits the hardest at night

[trying ungracefully]

My loneliness feeling is at it's worst once it's late. I mean today the big loneliness feeling hit around 7pm once I got home from my group and got back to my room. It is an emotional loneliness. My boyfriend calls me and comes over and I talk to my mom regularly and sit with her in the living room in the afternoon and I talk with my brothers and dad every now and then. There isn't really a reason to feel lonely it is just there and I have no idea why. I blamed it on my period but my period has passed and I am still feeling this way.

I know it might be depression but I don't know how it causes me to feel so lonely, I just want to feel normal and not this physical feeling of loneliness that makes my chest tighten and makes me cry. When I am with someone or on the phone it goes away but it's impossible for someone to be with me 24/7.

I don't even know if I am really depressed. I feel good around people but then once I get to be by myself that is when all the emotions hit. Every day I am just hoping passes until it gets to the next day and I hope that passes too. I also just want to give up at times but I am still trying. Like I am doing my therapy work and I am going to talk to my psychiatrist about maybe changing medications around. I don't want to do my therapy work but I just view it as I have to so I try to do it the best I can.

I don't think there's a way to get this loneliness feeling to go away because it is something emotional that I need to work on myself. I don't know how to feel less lonely without people though. I don't really have hobbies it's basically just crochet and I'm frustrated with that right now so I'm not doing that. I like reading too but I don't have any new interesting books and it's hard to just read a book to pass time.

Has anyone been able to overcome their deep feeling of emotional loneliness? How did you do it? Do friends help and is that what I'm missing?

 

[DownwardSpiral]

It sure does. Man I don't really know. Sometimes you have to just sit with the loneliness to be able to understand more about yourself and where it comes from. I wish I could say more but I'm struggling myself.

 

[FatGringo]

I have the same struggle, sometimes even when i´m with people i feel lonely

 

[deny_conformity]

This is a growing concern of mine. I am going to be moving into my own place in a couple of months. It'll be the first time I've ever lived on my own and I'm not sure how I'll cope.

At the moment I live with a friend, prior to that it was family (which was probably worse than being on my own) and prior to that it was my ex wife/son.

Going back my entire life there has always been friends and family living with me, soon it will be just me.

 

[SASU-KE]

I have the same struggle, sometimes even when i´m with people i feel lonely

Same here FatGringo,I have the same issue.

 

[Snailey]

I have to have podcasts/talk shows constantly running.

It definitely helps with loneliness I've found.

 

[whatisaholemadeof]

Yeah it hits badly at night. I struggle with this myself. Usually I want to be held. Keeping busy helped it not be at the forefront of my mind, but it can resurface.

 

[fuzzypeach]

for me its lowkey the opposite, by 6pm i feel fine because everyone i like is out of work and available to talk to me. from 9-5 i am miserable tho

 

[tomame]

my loneliness hits the hardest on friday and saturdays- also when i want to go out to eat or do something entertaining and have no one to go with
my partner of 10 years passed away ):

 

[trying ungracefully]

my loneliness hits the hardest on friday and saturdays- also when i want to go out to eat or do something entertaining and have no one to go with
my partner of 10 years passed away ):

Same with the weekends. I am at the prime adult clubbing age and I can barely go out. My boyfriend can't always see me either and I don't have any friends.

I'm so sorry that your partner passed away, that's just terrible to have to deal with I can't imagine the pain you are going through.

 

[trying ungracefully]

I'm back to feeling the deep loneliness. It went away for a bit but I can't have peace for too long. I also forgot to take my gabapentin for a bit so the anxiety that hit yesterday made me feel so lonely and terrible. Luckily my boyfriend was able to watch shows with me all day and I took other medication that would make me tired.

I don't know when this will ever go away. I'm waiting for my parents to get home so I can spend some time with them because I can't find anything else that makes it okay. Reality shows help me feel okay but there's only so much reality tv someone can watch. It's just a distraction I have to work on something inside but I don't know what. I'm reading a book on how to fix this type of stuff but it's not really helping.

I want to kill myself because I feel so lonely. No amount of time spent with me would help I think I'll just always feel lonely.