Venting Ways to cope with loneliness?

[goodbad&ugly777]

My whole life, like literally my whole life I've never been someone's first. I've been told I am someone's first choice, or that they care about me a lot. But I've never actually felt it. I've only ever met one person who truly made me feel loved. And I ended up dating her and ruining it all. I don't know if I can live without her, I think about her constantly. My parents when I speak to them just keep their faces in their phones, completely ignoring me. Regardless of what I'm talking about. And I just feel a crushing loneliness constantly. Usually I just sit and play games all day, but I play multiplayer games with nobody else to play with. My one friend I used to play with dropped me this summer. And now every time I get on the game to relax, I can't help but remember how lonely I am. Anyways, does anyone have good advice on how to cope with the loneliness I'm feeling? I also just made my account and don't really know any of the terms people say and I'm honestly a bit nervous posting on here for the first time but, I don't know. Any advice/help would be appreciated.

 

[overusedusername]

When I was in school without many friends I got really into art. Almost all of my amazingly artistic friends grew up without a lot of friends, and that's how they got so good at what they do.

Could be any kind of solo hobby tbh.