Loneliness as a deterrent

[Rounded Agony]

Hello sad people,

Hopefully there isn't already something about this somewhere - nothing came up as suggested and I'm still finding my way around here and how to be a community member - but I'm curious about any users' experience around loneliness stopping them from quitting the game, as I like to call it.

I came upon a goodbye thread in the first days after signing up that was rather intense, where the user seemed so distressed about departing alone as it happened, and was just looking for presence of others in the process. Then there's the entire subsection for partners. It's no secret many of us are very lonely, but paradoxically enough that same thing seems to keep us around and/or company can be a motivator.

How does this play in for you? If you don't want to go alone (in either sense), why not? Have you tried on your own before, but stopped due to being alone? If you isolated any thought process behind it, I'd love to hear.

Best of wishes to everyone

 

[Marine]

I've already died 3 times, 2 alone, but was sent back. For me it's more like I can't die without meeting at least one beautiful person inside out.

 

[Rounded Agony]

I've already died 3 times, 2 alone, but was sent back. For me it's more like I can't die without meeting at least one beautiful person inside out.

That is intense, thank you for sharing. It's been years since I played that title, but is your choice of username and image related at all to that character's experiences? I hope I don't need to broadcast spoilers but I remember Xion going through something similar...

 

[hellispink]

I wish I could have someone holding my hands or hugging me while I pass. It would be indeed conforting. I find it unfair that other diseases that are terminal are treated with more dignity and they are able to have company. But we got nothing but judgement and misunderstanding. I wish they would allow us to leave and decide freely so we can have company without involving them in any issues after.

 

[Marine]

That is intense, thank you for sharing. It's been years since I played that title, but is your choice of username and image related at all to that character's experiences? I hope I don't need to broadcast spoilers but I remember Xion going through something similar...

Sorry
You"re welcome.

Yes, I do relate to Xion a lot. Roxas too.

 

[Hollowillow]

Hello sad people,

Hopefully there isn't already something about this somewhere - nothing came up as suggested and I'm still finding my way around here and how to be a community member - but I'm curious about any users' experience around loneliness stopping them from quitting the game, as I like to call it.

I came upon a goodbye thread in the first days after signing up that was rather intense, where the user seemed so distressed about departing alone as it happened, and was just looking for presence of others in the process. Then there's the entire subsection for partners. It's no secret many of us are very lonely, but paradoxically enough that same thing seems to keep us around and/or company can be a motivator.

How does this play in for you? If you don't want to go alone (in either sense), why not? Have you tried on your own before, but stopped due to being alone? If you isolated any thought process behind it, I'd love to hear.

Best of wishes to everyone

Loneliness makes me wish to die, but I don't think it'd stop me...

My biggest motive is being jerked around in circles when calling for help. I was referred to a crisis center & they wanted me to go get another reference at the hospital instead of just accepting & evaluating me...
I've called for help since years from various life threatening events (beaten, hit by car, poison in home) and am dismissed more instead of given urgent help "oh you've been suicidal since months... No big deal, nothing changed"

I joined a forum and am shopping for ropes now... Fed up. I forgot the question. Sorry... And thank you

 

[tetra]

I've been close to multiple people who have seriously considered the idea of dying together with me. They were girls, and they changed their minds only a couple short years later. They view it as some ridiculous phase where two teenagers were in a bad place together, they talked about how glad they were that we were able to get through it together. I did not grow out of it. I've had the means to do it all by myself before, I haven't followed through with it. I know that i'm going to die alone, i'm still lonely, but I don't want to be disappointed again. One time on Omegle a guy offered to share his shotgun with me, taking turns n all that. We were talking pretty intensely for a couple hours. We both cried, we talked about our lives, and then he starts trying to sext me. I keep meeting all of these people and it turns out none of them get how I feel. The goal is death, it's inevitable, so why not make it comfortable? I don't want to spend 5 more years fine-tuning new relationships with friends/girlfriends/wives/partners/peers that will end up falling through, i'm just done. It'd be nice to hold hands with someone as I die, but imagining it in my head has been more satisfying than the actual results I get with people.

 

[Rounded Agony]

Thanks for the continued contributions, all. @tetra I'm sorry to hear you've been left behind and taken advantage of in these ways. Unfortunately the vulnerable are often targets and we are such a breed. I hope you can find some good companionship of any kind asap