Venting Living every day like it's my last

[kunikuzushi]

Lately I'm not thinking about the consequences of my actions because I really think I'll be gone soon. I've been having violent outbursts (by myself, not hurting others) and broke my phone screen throwing it because I'm just so overwhelmed with having to live in constant pain.

Today I went out and drank excessively even though I just had an infection. It's 5am and my stomach hurts. I'm ruining my relationship because it feels doomed. He'd rather play games than listen to me cry. Whatever I'll be dead real soon.

I wish for comfort in life or death.

 

[honeythunder]

Whats your ctb plan? Trying to figure out mine too

 

[kunikuzushi]

Whats your ctb plan? Trying to figure out mine too

I have SN. But I'm too scared to hurt the people close to me. I hope you can figure something out.

 

[Systemic]

I feel you. I have no plan for life whatsoever best i can do is plan doing something tommorow. But some bare necessities.

 

[honeythunder]

I have SN. But I'm too scared to hurt the people close to me. I hope you can figure something out.

Are you in the United States?